Why do I say I want to hang out when really I don't?
I get myself trapped in that situation a lot. I mean to say "Hey, this was fun, I'll see you around." I did a Chandler. "I'll call you." Oh my gosh, I might be in trouble.
Then these people that I say this to, plan other things around the time approx. that we might be hanging out, and I figured out that one of them wanted me to hang out with their friends that I don't particularly like, and they don't like me, either. I'm not going to force myself to be friends with someone who won't give ME the time of day. I have enough relationships of people sharing their problems to me, to extend my arm longer, and grab three more. No way. I'm not doing that. And then the person I originally planned to hang out with, they couldn't understand that after watching a TV show over at someone's house and then abruptly leaving is rude, sure I stay around for a little while after anyways, but if a discussion occurs and it's meaningful, I'm going to stay. I gave no time of when we were to hang out. This person stays up 'til 4 in the morning every night. They can hang out whenever. But no, they said "I'm going to hang out with Errick around 9 (when the show got over) and then after that, I'll call you." I left my friend's house, I was watching TV at, around 11. I know that's late, but I never scheduled a time when me and this other person would hang out. We're not dating. Therefore, I don't owe it to them. And if you are going to proceed and pack on other plans, do those first, and call me afterwards. I would have been fine with that. But they wanted me to go with them so that they wouldn't feel as uncomfortable because an ex of their's would be there. Funny how that works, yeah?
I shouldn't have said I wanted to hang out.
And then the next day, I was supposed to go over to that person's house and get a picture done for an abstinence poster that this person's mother was doing for the KISSN program. But I slept all the way through it until 5:30.
Yesterday was one of the worst days, ever.
And then last night, I stayed up until 4am watching Boys on the Side. And then I woke up today at 4:30. I'm annoyed with my sleep schedule. I want to wake up for my alarm.
I need to go to bed earlier.
I need to read the Bible more. I need to pray more. I've been lacking. And that sucks, because when a relationship as important as one with the Father is lacking, everything else in general seems to just suck. From my experiences, that's true.
Lord, forgive me. Please Jesus. Give me time with you today.
And tonight, I'm going bowling and I'm going to have fun.
Then these people that I say this to, plan other things around the time approx. that we might be hanging out, and I figured out that one of them wanted me to hang out with their friends that I don't particularly like, and they don't like me, either. I'm not going to force myself to be friends with someone who won't give ME the time of day. I have enough relationships of people sharing their problems to me, to extend my arm longer, and grab three more. No way. I'm not doing that. And then the person I originally planned to hang out with, they couldn't understand that after watching a TV show over at someone's house and then abruptly leaving is rude, sure I stay around for a little while after anyways, but if a discussion occurs and it's meaningful, I'm going to stay. I gave no time of when we were to hang out. This person stays up 'til 4 in the morning every night. They can hang out whenever. But no, they said "I'm going to hang out with Errick around 9 (when the show got over) and then after that, I'll call you." I left my friend's house, I was watching TV at, around 11. I know that's late, but I never scheduled a time when me and this other person would hang out. We're not dating. Therefore, I don't owe it to them. And if you are going to proceed and pack on other plans, do those first, and call me afterwards. I would have been fine with that. But they wanted me to go with them so that they wouldn't feel as uncomfortable because an ex of their's would be there. Funny how that works, yeah?
I shouldn't have said I wanted to hang out.
And then the next day, I was supposed to go over to that person's house and get a picture done for an abstinence poster that this person's mother was doing for the KISSN program. But I slept all the way through it until 5:30.
Yesterday was one of the worst days, ever.
And then last night, I stayed up until 4am watching Boys on the Side. And then I woke up today at 4:30. I'm annoyed with my sleep schedule. I want to wake up for my alarm.
I need to go to bed earlier.
I need to read the Bible more. I need to pray more. I've been lacking. And that sucks, because when a relationship as important as one with the Father is lacking, everything else in general seems to just suck. From my experiences, that's true.
Lord, forgive me. Please Jesus. Give me time with you today.
And tonight, I'm going bowling and I'm going to have fun.