All I can think about is BABIES BABIES BABIES....
So I just found out an old friend of mine Shauna is pregnant. Its a bitter sweet thing for me. Im happy for her because I know what joys come with having a baby. I also will pray for her because she is young and being a new mom can be hard. Bitter because I know my situation. I see all these young unmarried people having babies and I think to myself...why is it that I try to be responsible, do what is right in the eyes of God this happens? Nate and I both know that nearly 99% of all males with CF are infertile and to me honest we have been trying ever since we were married to have a child. I know it can take time. Miracles happen and I am wating for mine. If this sounds harsh that is not my intent, but sometimes I think why can crackheads and sluts go around having kids, knowing fully well they can handle that responsiblity but yet it come so easy to them. Its just hard to see all these unwed moms having kids, with a lot of them not having the father support. Its not fair! I know I know life isnt fair.
I keep hearing about all the "options" we have. We can adopt..that would only cost about $15,000 up front. We could try invetro...that would only cost about $10,000 if it works the first time. Yeah we have options. I know that having children is exspensive, and Im not saying its not worth the tens of thousands of dollars to adopt, its a beautiful to know you have saved a child's life. Its just hard...and Im tired of feeling as if I have to put a dream on hold.
Well, I have made my peace..I have said what I needed to get off my chest. Everyone have a wonderful rest of you week, and just pray for me I need it right now. Thank for reading and listening!
****disclaimer**** Not to sound rude but I really dont need to hear anymore about how I have so much time and that I just have to be patient, I already know all that, I dont need people to tell me that..I have thought everything through and needed to let it out on paper (so to speak)
I keep hearing about all the "options" we have. We can adopt..that would only cost about $15,000 up front. We could try invetro...that would only cost about $10,000 if it works the first time. Yeah we have options. I know that having children is exspensive, and Im not saying its not worth the tens of thousands of dollars to adopt, its a beautiful to know you have saved a child's life. Its just hard...and Im tired of feeling as if I have to put a dream on hold.
Well, I have made my peace..I have said what I needed to get off my chest. Everyone have a wonderful rest of you week, and just pray for me I need it right now. Thank for reading and listening!
****disclaimer**** Not to sound rude but I really dont need to hear anymore about how I have so much time and that I just have to be patient, I already know all that, I dont need people to tell me that..I have thought everything through and needed to let it out on paper (so to speak)