Letter to Nathon
I wrote this letter to Nathon today...he wont be home until 1am. I will be asleep. I hope he understands I needed to tell him this.
Nathon,
If I had to pick a song that I wished portrayed what my life was like with you (and if need be without you) it would be this. I don’t know if you have actually listened to the lyrics, but here they are for reference:
What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time
Cause it's you and me and all of the people
Nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you
All of the things that I want to say
Just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words, you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here
Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off you
Something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right
Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of
You and me and all of the people
With nothing to do nothin to prove and
It's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you
What day is it?
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive
I always wish that my mind-set would be that I have nothing to lose. That nothing would compare to achieving what I desire, what I feel inside me. That I was doing something for the sheer purpose that this is what at the moment was meant to be. Not for anyone else, for myself and for you. That we could pick up our bags when we felt moved (literally or figuratively) to a different place; to a different world…do a different life. I wish I didn’t have to know which day it was, which month it was.
I wish I felt so young and free that I had nothing to prove besides the fact that I had nothing to prove. I wish I had a group of people to help me understand that life doesn’t have to be the way I feel it is. That life isn’t here to prove you are loyal, honest, and hard working. Life isn’t here for liars trying to scam us into believing they are someone they aren’t, but here to prove we can accept everyone the way they are.
I want to pack up my bags and be responsible to my heart and myself. I don’t need to be held accountable for anyone or anything anymore. I’m too tired, too confused to deal with it. I don’t want a place to call home besides your warm embrace. I don’t want a plan anymore besides the plan God has in store for me. I don’t know what it is and surprisingly I don’t care.
But how can I do this? How can I listen to my heart with everything I have now promised to others? How can this carefree life I want to live go along side with this “real” world life? Can they coincide with each other or must I choose? Must I choose between you and it also?
There’s something about you now Nathon. Everything you do is beautiful no doubting that. I can’t keep my eyes off of you.
I have nothing to prove.
I have nothing to lose.
Can it be that easy? Can just saying that make it true?
I love you, for forever…
Martha Marie
Nathon,
If I had to pick a song that I wished portrayed what my life was like with you (and if need be without you) it would be this. I don’t know if you have actually listened to the lyrics, but here they are for reference:
What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time
Cause it's you and me and all of the people
Nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you
All of the things that I want to say
Just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words, you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here
Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off you
Something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right
Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of
You and me and all of the people
With nothing to do nothin to prove and
It's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you
What day is it?
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive
I always wish that my mind-set would be that I have nothing to lose. That nothing would compare to achieving what I desire, what I feel inside me. That I was doing something for the sheer purpose that this is what at the moment was meant to be. Not for anyone else, for myself and for you. That we could pick up our bags when we felt moved (literally or figuratively) to a different place; to a different world…do a different life. I wish I didn’t have to know which day it was, which month it was.
I wish I felt so young and free that I had nothing to prove besides the fact that I had nothing to prove. I wish I had a group of people to help me understand that life doesn’t have to be the way I feel it is. That life isn’t here to prove you are loyal, honest, and hard working. Life isn’t here for liars trying to scam us into believing they are someone they aren’t, but here to prove we can accept everyone the way they are.
I want to pack up my bags and be responsible to my heart and myself. I don’t need to be held accountable for anyone or anything anymore. I’m too tired, too confused to deal with it. I don’t want a place to call home besides your warm embrace. I don’t want a plan anymore besides the plan God has in store for me. I don’t know what it is and surprisingly I don’t care.
But how can I do this? How can I listen to my heart with everything I have now promised to others? How can this carefree life I want to live go along side with this “real” world life? Can they coincide with each other or must I choose? Must I choose between you and it also?
There’s something about you now Nathon. Everything you do is beautiful no doubting that. I can’t keep my eyes off of you.
I have nothing to prove.
I have nothing to lose.
Can it be that easy? Can just saying that make it true?
I love you, for forever…
Martha Marie