too much updating lately
you know when you get that yearning for someone that used to be a part of your life but you haven't seen them in years and all of a suddent it hits you that you really miss them and can't get them out of your mind? even if they were just a passing note that just struck you the really right way...then you wonder like crazy what they might be up to and what they're feeling right now. it might have been innocent and sweet, it ended kinda bitter, then there was hope and then there was disappointment again. it was the sweetest semester i've ever spent being infatuated and grossly european. high and wasted and wasting feelings and time but sometimes a little piece of my hear wonders how it would feel to see his face again. i suppose i'm talking out of misery and perhaps i'm just hungry for feelings but then again no, i've always felt this way and however impossible it might be i hope one day i can find the path that crosses his even for one minute cause it gave me meaning of something pure and blissful...boxer briefs, toes and lucky strikes...blue eyed heaven.