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My internship is going alright. I will get paid less than everyone else, since I am still in training, which is fine. I have it planned out where I will go into my internship in the afternoons because that is when the kids are there and I can spend the most time with them. We discharged one today, he's pretty estatic about getting to go home. I think he will be ok, he's worked really hard on his issues and I think he's grown but I have only seen him once and will probably never see him again. The other ones I'm getting to know slowly. I am never relaxed around the boys, I am always waiting for them to blow up or throw something, or get mad. I think that is one of the things I need to work on, to relax around them, maybe then I can be more real around them and I won't be so tired all the time when I get home. I miss my family when I am there, when they call it makes me heartsick for them. It's been pretty calm for the past few days, but I feel there is something about to explode. I think I need to give myself more time and go easier on myself. It was only my second day of work. My boss is still kind of a prick, he doesn't seem to get that I cannot tabulate one hour with the boys as two or three, so I will not be getting my needed 300 hours from this internship. Luckily, my friend Dena has asked me to run errands for her during the day so she will see how that can get added onto my internship hours. It will all be ok, I just hope I'm not getting burned out already. I feel like crying, it must be stress.