Closing time...
Tonight, it was one of those moments in your life when you take a step back and you look at what's going on around you and you ask yourself... Is this my life? And it was. Tonight I closed with the 2005-2006 national tour of Blast! Our last show ... I don't even know how to describe it. I was crying my eyes out all day. ALL DAY! I wasn't crying because it was over and blah blah. I cried for all the moments I will no longer have with people. I cried for the people I will not wake up too. I cried for the bus rides I will no longer take. I cried for the fact that I wont share the stage with these people ever again. I cried because I have so many wonderful memories. I cried for all the laughter. I cried for all the pain. I cried for the struggle, the heartache, the drama, the joy, the excitement, the spontaneous actions of those around me. I cried out of complete happiness. I couldn't control it. It's amazing. This cast is amazing. And I am so blessed to be apart of it. We may have no been on the most glamorous of tours, but because of that we became so close as a unit. So close. And for that I am thankful. I'm thankful for the people. I am thankful for the experience. I am thankful for the laughter and joy that I have shared with so many people. I am thankful that I got to see this country (both big and small). I am thankful that I will leave this tour tomorrow and have a family spread out across this country that would do anything for me, just as I would them. Tonight, no one else exists. It's just us. And a part of me doesn't want tonight to end. Because if it does, that means that it will officially be over. And I don't want it to be. I wish tonight could last forever. I wish samba could have lasted forever. I wish that I will never forget what this tour has done for me and the people who have helped shape who I am right now. I wish that for everyeone in this cast. I wish that the memories will stay as vivid as they were when they happened. I wish that the laughter would never stop. I wish that. I wish it would never stop. I wish I could see everyone's face on stage again. But it wont happen, but I'm sure as hell glad that it did. That I got to experience everything. I'm blessed... more than I can say.