"lets pretend we don't exsist"
"I think I have enough crazies in my life"
one crazy is enough, i think. but i don't even remember the last time i saw mine... a year ago? maybe longer? i was talking to my mom on the phone last night about how i almost entirely blocked out the whole summer having to deal with my dad after everything happened, there's probably something psychologically wrong with that, or at least a fancy name for it. but now all thats left is this mix of guilt and relief, but not in the typical sense, not like i feel guilty for not visiting but relieved i don't have to deal with him anymore. more like a relief from the guilt i have for all the horrible, bitter feelings i've been harboring for three some years now. or maybe i feel guilty for feeling relieved. its strange, strange enough to wake someone up at 7:30 in the morning and make them lie in bed and think about it...
today is my last exam, and my last official day as a grand valley student. probably kind of a big deal.
wish me luck