Meditations
On love-
What's it for? I think, to many people, love is just one big excuse. "Why'd you sleep with them?" "Cuz I'm in love"; "Why do you let him abuse you?" "Cuz I love him."; It's used as kind of an end all excuse. "Why didn't you break up with her" "Cuz I love her". Besides, I don't think a lot of people even grasp it anymore. Often, it's perversely referred to as 'the magic three words'. I'm sure everyone understands that statement. Not to mention- the commerciality of it. I mean, holy shit, every year, between about now and february- huge companies are moving millions of heart-shaped boxes of chocolates that say I love you on them. Then there are the 3 dollar cards- not to mention the boxes of valentines cards that elementary school kids exchange- EVEN THOUGH there is now way that any 3rd grader would possibly be able to grasp the concept of Valentine's day- I mean, really, at that age, boys still think girls have cooties.
And the jewelery stored- my god, they make loads of money off of guys buyin' diamonds for their girls, even though most relationship- even those that are married, will inevitably be terminated. I don't think people get love anymore- and certainly have no clue how to express it. You don't show love through a diamond necklace- try a song, or a poem, or a drawing/paintint. Do somehting original for god sakes. Anyone can open up their wallet, open up your freaking heart. For those that have a heart anyway.
Yea... anyway. I guess it doesn't matter. No one really takes relationships seriously anymore either. I mean, think about how many people date with the goal of getting laid, how many people date just to be with someone. And since when do 'open relationships' exist? When did that term get coined exactly? So what, you have a g/f, but you're seeing other people at the same time? Which is it? Are you with someone or aren't you. "Oh hey, do you wanna be my girlfriend until further notice, you know, 'til I find someone better." I mean, holy shit. If I found my g/f out with anther guy- he'd wish my fist wouldn't be able to reach him. But, I guess I'm a couple decades late, it used to be romantic to knock someone out over a girl, now it's assault. Not to mention the accusation of jealousy. Used to be called defending your girl and standin up for her, now it's being jealous and controlling.
By the way- I really don't grasp the concept of going out with people. I mean- how is it possible that you have more of a chance getting a date with someone you just met, than with someone you've been friends with forever. I mean, personally, if I'm gonna ask someone out, I want to get to know them, know about them, what they like, their hobbies, etc... Other people now-a-days however, only get to know their friends, and people they wanna go out with, they just do it. What's with that? Things are different, and honestly- it doesn't make much sense to me.
Here's what I do know- in 8 months, I move away, 2 hours and 15 minutes away... for 4 years. And until then, I'm just along for the ride. What the hell am I going to accomplish socially in 5 months. Nothing. So, whatever, ride it out, start a-new in college.
P.S. I want input. I think I'm going to cut my hair after graduation. I know what the whole two of you are going to say "well, it's up to you". However, I want your personal opinion, cuz it doesn't matter what I do or decide- you're going to have an opinion either way. I just want feedback. OK? So comment.