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Well, Tracey got engaged again apparently. They went to Ocean City for the weekend and he popped the question. And she accepted I guess. I haven't heard from Tracey herself but mom called to tell me and here was my reaction. "Oh no. (Long pause) Yuck. (Another long pause) Ok, next topic." and mom went right along with me. Silence is approval, right? I had the same reaction when she decided to marry Derrick except much worse and a few COPS episodes and divorce proceedings later here we are again. It's like she went from one extreme to the other. Derrick the introverted intellectual asshole to Mike the outgoing dumb-as-a-rock asshole. Both of these relationships seem pretty adversarial. Tracey would punk Derrick out publicly, as smart as he was, and he would get pissed but not do anything. Then at home he would come back at her pretty hard. But she seems to be above her station or something with Mike and he just seems like a dumb dickhead. I so wish she wouldn't do it. It seems like she's doing it again for all the wrong reasons. I honestly don't believe she loves this guy. I don't see how she could but regardless of my dislike for him theirs doesn't appear to be a loving relationship at all. I think she's doing it again because she thinks she "should" and possibly thinks her clock is ticking. The baby thing seems to haunt her to no end. I guess she thinks that she can raise a baby on her own like mom did with us, so it won't matter who the father is and if they're together all it's life. But does she not see how fucked up that is? How fucked up we are when that's what we went through? I don't know what to do. Do I tell her I think it's a big mistake? I never outright said that to her about Derrick. I don't feel like it's my place. But if it's not my place then whose is it? It's obvious she's not thinking about it correctly. Ha ha. Maybe that's not the way to put it. But I guarantee this one will end pretty much the same way as her first did. If not then it will just be an unhappy marriage like mom and dad had for 23 years or whatever it was. Ugh. My sister. What do I do with her? It seems obvious, I bet, to anyone that sees them together that they're not compatible. They don't seem to fit at all. I don't see them alone so maybe I'm missing something but can it be that different? Can it really be THAT different? I try to look at it as if he treats her right then it's ok and none of my business but I'm pretty sure that he doesn't treat her any better than Derrick did and look how that ended. And SHE doesn't treat him any better than she did Derrick. Maybe we just aren't meant to be with significant others. Maybe our upbringing has made us damaged goods. Maybe I'm wrong about all of this. But I was right about Derrick. I've been right about most of my intuitive judgments in life regarding other people. I think I'm remembering that correctly. I've definitely been wrong about my own life so maybe I should just leave Tracey to hers. Whatever. I've had enough thinking about it for one entry.
I didn't know that Paul Weller had another album out till yesterday. So I got it. I thought it was going to be awesome when I heard the first song but then it got boring. I read where he said he was getting bored with his music so I expected something crazy with these songs. Like Jam to Style Council to solo years craziness. But it's just the same old stuff. But with a harp thrown in here and there which isn't a good thing. I still love his voice and think it's better than what Elvis Costello does or what Westerberg does in his old age. But, ehhh, it's kinda boring. On another note about this. It's a covers album. Two covers things in a row. Maybe THAT is how he's expressing boredom. By not writing. But they're all covers that I've never heard of except All Along The Watchtower and really...Do we need another cover of that? I don't like any version I've heard of it so I wasn't expecting to like his and didn't.
But I do like that Franz Ferdinand song. Fucking love it, as a matter of fact. I've downloaded some others but don't dig them as much. One hit wonder? We'll see.
Friday I went out and heard Courtney's band for the first time. They weren't bad, but honestly I didn't feel threatened by them. There were three bands playing that night and I thought we were better than all three. But then I write shit that I like and they write shit that I don't like so it would make sense that I'd like us better. Right? Right. No one seems to write songs with good melodies or hooks. Where the hell is the good pop music? Matchbox 20 is not good pop music. Nor is Maroon 5. But where are normal guys writing songs about girls and playing guitar without trying to be too indie-cool or drenched in effects like those bands on Friday? Just plain old honest rock music. Not Bruce Springsteen but like The Beatles playing Help or No Reply. Something like that. It's a dying breed of music apparently.
Ok, I've rambled enough for one entry.
I didn't know that Paul Weller had another album out till yesterday. So I got it. I thought it was going to be awesome when I heard the first song but then it got boring. I read where he said he was getting bored with his music so I expected something crazy with these songs. Like Jam to Style Council to solo years craziness. But it's just the same old stuff. But with a harp thrown in here and there which isn't a good thing. I still love his voice and think it's better than what Elvis Costello does or what Westerberg does in his old age. But, ehhh, it's kinda boring. On another note about this. It's a covers album. Two covers things in a row. Maybe THAT is how he's expressing boredom. By not writing. But they're all covers that I've never heard of except All Along The Watchtower and really...Do we need another cover of that? I don't like any version I've heard of it so I wasn't expecting to like his and didn't.
But I do like that Franz Ferdinand song. Fucking love it, as a matter of fact. I've downloaded some others but don't dig them as much. One hit wonder? We'll see.
Friday I went out and heard Courtney's band for the first time. They weren't bad, but honestly I didn't feel threatened by them. There were three bands playing that night and I thought we were better than all three. But then I write shit that I like and they write shit that I don't like so it would make sense that I'd like us better. Right? Right. No one seems to write songs with good melodies or hooks. Where the hell is the good pop music? Matchbox 20 is not good pop music. Nor is Maroon 5. But where are normal guys writing songs about girls and playing guitar without trying to be too indie-cool or drenched in effects like those bands on Friday? Just plain old honest rock music. Not Bruce Springsteen but like The Beatles playing Help or No Reply. Something like that. It's a dying breed of music apparently.
Ok, I've rambled enough for one entry.