um...
so maybe andrew (the really cute one who is blonde and 6'8'') likes me. i mean he invited me along when he was going to berkeley, and he called me on friday to see what i was doing. problem: im dating derek. and sure we say its an "open relationship", but really...we act more like a real relationship than a lot of other couples do. anyway, i really like derek.....but andrew is like the guy i've been dreaming about since forever....like, what do i do? i mean i should be with andrew, but i like being with derek. i want to date derek because he makes me so happy!! but andrew is so much more practical (and so attractive) and he's such a good guy! i mean he asks questions and actually cares about the answers. he has follow ups and everything. eye contact. the whole nine yards. he is amazing! but i am so freaking happy with derek. and i dont have to make a decision yet because andrew isn't really making a move...we are still in the getting to know each other stage. ugh!
okay, so today when i was saying good bye to derek, i kissed him, and then he looked at me and said "i will always remember our last kiss" ...i totally cried when i got back to my room. why would he do that? is it a game and he wants me to feel bad? or is he really sad and he honestly thinks its our last kiss? i dont know and it makes me sad
ps cute story:
on friday night, andrew taught me how to juggle. and my dad had been trying to teach me for years, but i just couldnt do it. anyway, so i called my dad and left him a message telling him that i learned to juggle and all that...and then i talked to him right now, and he ended the conversation with "keep the ball in the air. love you"
i almost freaking cried.
so that is my life...i think it's kind of ironic that andrew taught me to juggle considering i have 2 guys to juggle right now (kinda maybe)...eh...
okay, so today when i was saying good bye to derek, i kissed him, and then he looked at me and said "i will always remember our last kiss" ...i totally cried when i got back to my room. why would he do that? is it a game and he wants me to feel bad? or is he really sad and he honestly thinks its our last kiss? i dont know and it makes me sad
ps cute story:
on friday night, andrew taught me how to juggle. and my dad had been trying to teach me for years, but i just couldnt do it. anyway, so i called my dad and left him a message telling him that i learned to juggle and all that...and then i talked to him right now, and he ended the conversation with "keep the ball in the air. love you"
i almost freaking cried.
so that is my life...i think it's kind of ironic that andrew taught me to juggle considering i have 2 guys to juggle right now (kinda maybe)...eh...