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i hate spiders.
yesterday was pretty cute. me and brendan hung out at the powerline fields. then alex joined us. then we went to albertsons to get food. and then went back to the fields and had a picnic. then me and alex went to lns. then we went bakc to alexs and had a tub party with soem more people. it was cute. i left earlier than i would have liked because of some miscommunication with my dad. my daddys cute.
today i went to the beach (for the first time all summer! -besides at night). i started reading franny and zoey. i dont care what the reviews are, i really liked it. it got me thinking. about the existance of god, human nature, relationships, and then about myself. i began to feel really lonely. all my hidden emotions surfaced and it made me really upset. then i talked to alex and felt a little better. i just dont really feel close with anyone at the moment. theres too much distance. why do people feel they need to distance themselves to stay safe?
im still not completely over it. i need to hang out with friends and be comfortable and just sit and be bored and miserable with someone whos bored and miserable too.
im going to ny on tuesday. im pretty happy about that. even though im going to miss spending time with my friends here.
plane letters, people. just a reminder. even though i know you all remembered anyway, because im that loved.
the summer is nearing its end, and the wind is carrying the news. it was chilly at the beach today. thats kind of upsetting.
oh well, im going to be an upper classman soon. weird.
QUADIES!! yeyuh.
im oddly excited about school i guess. maybe ill do better this year. hopefully.
im hopeful.
maybe too hopeful. (about more than school.)
im off to go pack some more. goodbye for now, world of live journal.
yesterday was pretty cute. me and brendan hung out at the powerline fields. then alex joined us. then we went to albertsons to get food. and then went back to the fields and had a picnic. then me and alex went to lns. then we went bakc to alexs and had a tub party with soem more people. it was cute. i left earlier than i would have liked because of some miscommunication with my dad. my daddys cute.
today i went to the beach (for the first time all summer! -besides at night). i started reading franny and zoey. i dont care what the reviews are, i really liked it. it got me thinking. about the existance of god, human nature, relationships, and then about myself. i began to feel really lonely. all my hidden emotions surfaced and it made me really upset. then i talked to alex and felt a little better. i just dont really feel close with anyone at the moment. theres too much distance. why do people feel they need to distance themselves to stay safe?
im still not completely over it. i need to hang out with friends and be comfortable and just sit and be bored and miserable with someone whos bored and miserable too.
im going to ny on tuesday. im pretty happy about that. even though im going to miss spending time with my friends here.
plane letters, people. just a reminder. even though i know you all remembered anyway, because im that loved.
the summer is nearing its end, and the wind is carrying the news. it was chilly at the beach today. thats kind of upsetting.
oh well, im going to be an upper classman soon. weird.
QUADIES!! yeyuh.
im oddly excited about school i guess. maybe ill do better this year. hopefully.
im hopeful.
maybe too hopeful. (about more than school.)
im off to go pack some more. goodbye for now, world of live journal.