Update
well, there's many things i could put in here... of course, many of them i don't need everyone knowing about. But for those of u who don't know, my family is basicly falling apart but that's something i, and i alone can deal with. But it's times like this that i really wish i weren't single. i just wish there was someone i could go to and just have them hold me and tell me it'll be okay.
Eh, but i've completely lost faith in love and or men. And kinda myself i suppose. mostly just love and men. all this shit with my father really makes me distrust guys plus the whole love thing... that's a given.
my mom and i are so alike. we handle situations the exact same way. then we put on a happy face for everyone except for a select few people who we actually trust. i really hope in the future i become as great as a mother as she's been to me. although that's kinda far away isn't it lol.
I'm so happy diana was there for me today. it was nice to have someone be there for me. I have to keep reminding myself of that. that i do have friends i can go to who won't stop talking to me simply because i have problems. I never realized how much that one thing hurt me last year. that someone who was interested in me suddenly stopped talking to me because i had too much crap going on in my life. i really took that to heart. plus the whole thing where people were calling me a drama queen. granted, things that were happening then weren't really all that much to worry about compared to what's going on in my life right now. but it's really not fair of people to be like 'oh, you're overly dramatic just cuz you let people know how u feel'. it's NATURAL to feel things when something bad has been done to you.
Although alot of things some people have been bothered by lately have been pissing me off. like i'm not one to say that people can't be sad just cuz someone doesn't like you or something like that. but it just really bothers me when people are like, oh my life just sucks so much because of some guy or girl when my life is essentially falling apart. idk, it just seems like guy/girl shit is trivial compared to what's happening with my family. And i feel like people aren't really getting that. But w/e, if people want to think their life is shit just because someone doesn't like them, that's their own issue.
oy... my body is physically fucked up man. idk what the hell is up. this damn bump on my neck, my neck pain, my migraines, my throat killing me, my ears feel like they're gonna explode, my back hurts. it's fucking ridiculous lol. i have all this physical pain along with the mental. most people think it's just stress causing it all... i honestly dont know. i'm probly gonna get the bump on me neck checked out tho cuz it's really WEIRD.
mm, i was supposed to work on an econ thing tonight... some how, i think mr. noto will understand.... if his father... mm, but that's again my own issue, that i don't need everyone knowing about.
Eh, but i've completely lost faith in love and or men. And kinda myself i suppose. mostly just love and men. all this shit with my father really makes me distrust guys plus the whole love thing... that's a given.
my mom and i are so alike. we handle situations the exact same way. then we put on a happy face for everyone except for a select few people who we actually trust. i really hope in the future i become as great as a mother as she's been to me. although that's kinda far away isn't it lol.
I'm so happy diana was there for me today. it was nice to have someone be there for me. I have to keep reminding myself of that. that i do have friends i can go to who won't stop talking to me simply because i have problems. I never realized how much that one thing hurt me last year. that someone who was interested in me suddenly stopped talking to me because i had too much crap going on in my life. i really took that to heart. plus the whole thing where people were calling me a drama queen. granted, things that were happening then weren't really all that much to worry about compared to what's going on in my life right now. but it's really not fair of people to be like 'oh, you're overly dramatic just cuz you let people know how u feel'. it's NATURAL to feel things when something bad has been done to you.
Although alot of things some people have been bothered by lately have been pissing me off. like i'm not one to say that people can't be sad just cuz someone doesn't like you or something like that. but it just really bothers me when people are like, oh my life just sucks so much because of some guy or girl when my life is essentially falling apart. idk, it just seems like guy/girl shit is trivial compared to what's happening with my family. And i feel like people aren't really getting that. But w/e, if people want to think their life is shit just because someone doesn't like them, that's their own issue.
oy... my body is physically fucked up man. idk what the hell is up. this damn bump on my neck, my neck pain, my migraines, my throat killing me, my ears feel like they're gonna explode, my back hurts. it's fucking ridiculous lol. i have all this physical pain along with the mental. most people think it's just stress causing it all... i honestly dont know. i'm probly gonna get the bump on me neck checked out tho cuz it's really WEIRD.
mm, i was supposed to work on an econ thing tonight... some how, i think mr. noto will understand.... if his father... mm, but that's again my own issue, that i don't need everyone knowing about.