WHOA MAN!
I'm writing in my old live journal. why you ask? well, because i had a bad day and feel like saying shit. Plus the whole thing where i've been drinking in my room with one of my BUDS! Yup, ready? here comes honest Lydia!!! READY AND..................... GO!
People are pissing me off quite a bit at the moment. plus i'm feeling quite shitty because see, i've given up on believing things people say. "I love you" hm... yeah see, that's what eric, the douche bag said to me. Yeah, did he love me? i think not. i hate guys who will tell you they love you to make u do things with them. It's low and i'm not gonna take it no mo'. Oh and i'm pissed that shawn keeps saying shit about 'pulling a don bowman'. Shawn, i yelled at you to please stop it and you still haven't. you said is hould tell you when something bothered me and i did and you still kept on saying shit. If you really don't want to go with me, fine i'll tell my mother to take my damn dress back. You know all i really wanted was to have one good prom/ball, but seems like that's not gonna happen. Btw shawn, i was not planning to have alcohol at ur house. i just thought that would be a good alternate place if we couldn't go camping. jeez man. why do u always think such bad things about me.
On that note, for the record, i am not a whore or a slut bag or anything close to that. i feel like everyone thinks that of me. I do NOT sleep around and yes maybe i'm a bit more flirtatious now, but that just means i've opened up more.
Lets see... what else... meh, idk. things are just bothering me. and if you have a problem with me being a downer, i appologize, yah know what? i can't really help it. And i wish people would stop making me feel like i'm not allowed to be upset or hurt or angry. i have my reasons. maybe they don't make sense to you, but they hurt me and i can't stop the way i feel.
All i really want at the moment is to be happy. and i can't be. sux for me. don't it? eh, w/e i'm gonna go either make myself something crazy for dinner or else drink more eh, idk.
and no, i'm not an alcoholic, i just drink every once in a while. i haven't drank in like a month until today so chill the fuck out people. i don't drink all that much. and if you have a problem with that go suck my nonexistant cock. yep.
if i've offended, please excuse me. i jsut needed to get some shit off my chest while i still had the balls to say it.
People are pissing me off quite a bit at the moment. plus i'm feeling quite shitty because see, i've given up on believing things people say. "I love you" hm... yeah see, that's what eric, the douche bag said to me. Yeah, did he love me? i think not. i hate guys who will tell you they love you to make u do things with them. It's low and i'm not gonna take it no mo'. Oh and i'm pissed that shawn keeps saying shit about 'pulling a don bowman'. Shawn, i yelled at you to please stop it and you still haven't. you said is hould tell you when something bothered me and i did and you still kept on saying shit. If you really don't want to go with me, fine i'll tell my mother to take my damn dress back. You know all i really wanted was to have one good prom/ball, but seems like that's not gonna happen. Btw shawn, i was not planning to have alcohol at ur house. i just thought that would be a good alternate place if we couldn't go camping. jeez man. why do u always think such bad things about me.
On that note, for the record, i am not a whore or a slut bag or anything close to that. i feel like everyone thinks that of me. I do NOT sleep around and yes maybe i'm a bit more flirtatious now, but that just means i've opened up more.
Lets see... what else... meh, idk. things are just bothering me. and if you have a problem with me being a downer, i appologize, yah know what? i can't really help it. And i wish people would stop making me feel like i'm not allowed to be upset or hurt or angry. i have my reasons. maybe they don't make sense to you, but they hurt me and i can't stop the way i feel.
All i really want at the moment is to be happy. and i can't be. sux for me. don't it? eh, w/e i'm gonna go either make myself something crazy for dinner or else drink more eh, idk.
and no, i'm not an alcoholic, i just drink every once in a while. i haven't drank in like a month until today so chill the fuck out people. i don't drink all that much. and if you have a problem with that go suck my nonexistant cock. yep.
if i've offended, please excuse me. i jsut needed to get some shit off my chest while i still had the balls to say it.