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Ok, i've stopped being stressed out... well somewhat i'm still extremely worried about this weekend but this week of hell is almost over so i'm happy.
it's great how having a conversation with someone can make everything better... it's odd.
You know what really suprised me today? Shawn, Jimmy, RJ, Nick, and Michelle weren't as pissed as i expected. But w/e... i did what i did because i didn't want to scream at them.
Ugh rehearsal was soooo annoying today. I was trying to rehearse for my little bit of time with my cast and ms. wilcox brings everyone into the room. I was about to flip out on her. Then after she finally left, people stayed in the room and continued talking. IT WAS SO RUDE! How would YOU like it if i came into your rehearsal uninvited and talked in a normal speaking voice while you were trying to tell your actors the changes you made the the scene? I KNOW I DIDN'T LIKE IT!
but w/e, i was too nice to yell at them to get out. i did ask them to leave tho. i needed quiet. well at least as much as i was going to get with the guys. I love you guys but damn, i feel like i can never get a word in.
w/e no big deal just a minor annoyance.
ugh SAT course was boring as all hell.
Justin came back tonight. I was happy. I love having him home. I love being able to talk to someone in my house who doesn't think i'm a crazy ass teenager who tries extremely hard to annoy everyone around. He said he would be willing to supervise a party for prom night. Now all i need is a location... is anyone's house going to be free? ah, just kidding that'd b so rude of me.
worse comes to worse, i could just have people come over here and we would just have to deal with not drinking... well i guess since i'm kinda the drinker out of my friends i'd be the one dealing with not drinking but w/e...
I've been trying to ease myself away from alcohol... but when you think about it, it's really not that big of a deal that i drink. I mean so many people look down on it, but shit, look at my famliy. Extremely Irish on one side and Irish and German on the other. At all family partys there is always at least one person completely drunk. In my house, there are at least 40 different kinds of alcohol around. My parents drink at least 2 alcoholic beverages a night. My mom is my role model and she drinks like a fish. idk... i guess i really cant use all of this for excuses, but... well... i just wish... someone would understand... no matter what i do, i will end up drinking. It's part of who i am. I'm so used to being around alcohol that it has become part of my life. It's not like i'm going out getting drunk every night, nor do i plan to when i'm able to. idk... i personally don't see any problem with it but w/e i know that most people disagree with me and think i'm being stupid. but honestly, whenever i drink, i always have a plan to make sure that nothing bad happens... but w/e...
i'm going to bed now
that has been bothering me for some time now.
sorry
it's great how having a conversation with someone can make everything better... it's odd.
You know what really suprised me today? Shawn, Jimmy, RJ, Nick, and Michelle weren't as pissed as i expected. But w/e... i did what i did because i didn't want to scream at them.
Ugh rehearsal was soooo annoying today. I was trying to rehearse for my little bit of time with my cast and ms. wilcox brings everyone into the room. I was about to flip out on her. Then after she finally left, people stayed in the room and continued talking. IT WAS SO RUDE! How would YOU like it if i came into your rehearsal uninvited and talked in a normal speaking voice while you were trying to tell your actors the changes you made the the scene? I KNOW I DIDN'T LIKE IT!
but w/e, i was too nice to yell at them to get out. i did ask them to leave tho. i needed quiet. well at least as much as i was going to get with the guys. I love you guys but damn, i feel like i can never get a word in.
w/e no big deal just a minor annoyance.
ugh SAT course was boring as all hell.
Justin came back tonight. I was happy. I love having him home. I love being able to talk to someone in my house who doesn't think i'm a crazy ass teenager who tries extremely hard to annoy everyone around. He said he would be willing to supervise a party for prom night. Now all i need is a location... is anyone's house going to be free? ah, just kidding that'd b so rude of me.
worse comes to worse, i could just have people come over here and we would just have to deal with not drinking... well i guess since i'm kinda the drinker out of my friends i'd be the one dealing with not drinking but w/e...
I've been trying to ease myself away from alcohol... but when you think about it, it's really not that big of a deal that i drink. I mean so many people look down on it, but shit, look at my famliy. Extremely Irish on one side and Irish and German on the other. At all family partys there is always at least one person completely drunk. In my house, there are at least 40 different kinds of alcohol around. My parents drink at least 2 alcoholic beverages a night. My mom is my role model and she drinks like a fish. idk... i guess i really cant use all of this for excuses, but... well... i just wish... someone would understand... no matter what i do, i will end up drinking. It's part of who i am. I'm so used to being around alcohol that it has become part of my life. It's not like i'm going out getting drunk every night, nor do i plan to when i'm able to. idk... i personally don't see any problem with it but w/e i know that most people disagree with me and think i'm being stupid. but honestly, whenever i drink, i always have a plan to make sure that nothing bad happens... but w/e...
i'm going to bed now
that has been bothering me for some time now.
sorry