dark sense of humor: confirmed
A few days ago, I told Seth that I was almost sure I wanted a divorce at this point. Now we're back to saying "love you" and giving hugs upon arrival and departure; it's as if I never said anything. I'm now picturing my entire life like that Groundhog Day movie, and it's making me laugh.
Bring up divorce, don't bring up divorce, go on anti-depressants, go off anti-depressants, see a couple's therapist, don't see a couple's therapist, be childless, have a child, get masters, don't get masters - doesn't matter. None of these things change my life. I am completely powerless over my circumstances and essentially trapped inside my horrible self forever and ever. I could probably kill myself tonight and still wake up tomorrow!
Bring up divorce, don't bring up divorce, go on anti-depressants, go off anti-depressants, see a couple's therapist, don't see a couple's therapist, be childless, have a child, get masters, don't get masters - doesn't matter. None of these things change my life. I am completely powerless over my circumstances and essentially trapped inside my horrible self forever and ever. I could probably kill myself tonight and still wake up tomorrow!