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How long have we known each other now? Not very long, in all actuality. Just a little over a year and a half. And yet, it really does feel like I’ve known you forever. Whenever I try thinking back farther than my senior year, I have to remind myself that you weren’t there at the time.
It aches a little, to be honest. You’re such a big part of my life that I don’t like thinking about the times you weren’t there, like you have always been since the first day I met you.
If someone had told me before I met you that’d I’d fall for someone this hard, I would’ve laughed. Hell, if they had told me I’d fall for you, back when we were still getting to know each other, I would have wrote them off as clinically insane. Love didn’t happen for me, after all. Not the love I wanted.
And yet, they’d be right, wouldn’t they? I really am in complete love with you. It still comes as a surprise some days. You’ll do small things that make me burst into a grin, or smile softly to myself when I don’t think anyone’s looking. All these little emotions just… bubble up without a second thought, sneak up on me, and a lot of times leave me flustering silently. I want to call it embarrassing, except I don’t really mind at all.
A lot of times you’re the last thing I think about before I fall asleep, and one of the first to pop into my mind when I get out of bed. You keep me going even when I burn out and want to quit on everything. You bring me out of my moods with just a few words, and are one of the few people who can handle me at my worst and still love me for it anyway.
You’re just… you. And that’s all I could ever ask for.
So even though we’re not as close as I want us to be in terms of distance, the fact you touch my life everyday more than makes up for it. It’s a reminder that when I’m done with college, I have someone special and wonderful and perfect for me, waiting for me.
I love you. ♥ Marry me again?