twenty. ✝

[marredgoldfinch]

[his hair's down, hiding his face again, and he's covered from neck to ankle in all black again. Nathaniel's buried in golden strands, mewling. it seems he's embarrassed]

I must apologize for my behavior while I was - ah - female. I was brash and uncouth, and having breasts was no excuse.

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[dawnward]

Saturday? That's fine.

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[marredgoldfinch]

Sorry to move things around like that, but a donor failed to check in, so I wasn't sure I could count on him to be of service.

[offers a little smile]

I hope my behavior didn't offend you, Riku.

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[dawnward]

It's alright. Some things you can't help. But who didn't check in?

[shakes his head] You didn't offend me. We all did things we couldn't help.

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[marredgoldfinch]

Ianto.

Like sleeping with a goddess and an innocent child?

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[dawnward]

...I see. He might be gone.

[and then he just stares] You...?

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[marredgoldfinch]

That would be a shame, but there's a chance that is true.

[turns his head away]

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[dawnward]

Asher, they...consented, right?

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[marredgoldfinch]

... they did. They experienced my bite for the first time, and asked for more.

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[dawnward]

I see.

Given the...effect that your bite has, I can see why you'd be upset but what had occurred. It's very difficult to think straight when a person is in that situation. [and Riku certainly knows from experience]

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[marredgoldfinch]

[scuffs his foot against the floor, blushing. he's obviously fed]

I just... feel guilty. Like the only reason they were with me was because of the pleasure I bring.

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[dawnward]

[frowns slightly] Isn't...that the point of the effect your bite has? To encourage people to give willingly?

I'm not saying that's what you want. [more quietly] I'm sure you want people to do those kinds of thing because they like you. Because they want to be with you.

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[marredgoldfinch]

Yes, but it's addictive as you remember...

[swallows a sigh, looking miserable]

That's exactly what I want. And the one I care for doesn't want me.

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[dawnward]

Yes...yes, I remember.

[...Riku is uncharacteristically silent after Asher's last statement. he's frowning, eyes shadowed, torn. there's something very complex hidden in his expression]

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[marredgoldfinch]

[looks at Riku, considering this display]

He cares more for you, you know.

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[dawnward]

[seems almost...guilty]

Do you really think so?

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[marredgoldfinch]

I do.

He doesn't wish a relationship, but it's plain as day how he feels for you.