I hate science
I am drowning in Anatomy & Physiology. I hate every minute of it. I spend nearly 20 hours a week reading material that makes no sense to me. I could litterally read it until my face turns blue and only understand a fraction of the words. Then I'll have to read it again because apparently that's the only way to learn it? I'm not learning anything...I'm just spending numerous hours of my week frustrated beyond belief. I would spend 2 hours a day with a tutor if one was available before class, but no...all of the help available is after class when I have to go to work.
I did drown in Bio Psych. I took that class twice and I've never worked so hard in my life to get a D the first time and a F the second time. Yes, I got a F the second time...it was a different professor, different text and different testing style. Since I didn't understand the subject either time it might as well have been 2 different subjects. This single class made me change my major from Psych to Women Studies.
I just walked out of my first A&P test. I tried to turn the test in after I quickly went through and answered the few questions that I knew and wasted no time with the ones that never made any sense to me. The teacher begged me to keep trying on a question that I will never understand. I just don't see the point of reading the words over and over again and begging my brain to "remember" something that was never really in there in the first place. So, I tried for a few more minutes and I may get a fraction of the points available.
I had to give myself a little pep talk the other day that went something like this:
"It's not the end of the world if you don't pass this class"
"Maybe nursing isn't the path that's meant to be"
"You already have a BA degree that you could use someday"
"You already have 2 jobs in health care that are supporting you"
It's just so frustrating that so many people I know have taken this class and passed it. They all say that it was hard, but they all passed. So maybe I'm being a little too hard on myself or maybe I have some sort of learning deficit when it comes to sciences.
I'm just going to do the best I can and see what happens. I hate school and I can't believe I'm about to sign myself up for this torture for another ~3 years.
I did drown in Bio Psych. I took that class twice and I've never worked so hard in my life to get a D the first time and a F the second time. Yes, I got a F the second time...it was a different professor, different text and different testing style. Since I didn't understand the subject either time it might as well have been 2 different subjects. This single class made me change my major from Psych to Women Studies.
I just walked out of my first A&P test. I tried to turn the test in after I quickly went through and answered the few questions that I knew and wasted no time with the ones that never made any sense to me. The teacher begged me to keep trying on a question that I will never understand. I just don't see the point of reading the words over and over again and begging my brain to "remember" something that was never really in there in the first place. So, I tried for a few more minutes and I may get a fraction of the points available.
I had to give myself a little pep talk the other day that went something like this:
"It's not the end of the world if you don't pass this class"
"Maybe nursing isn't the path that's meant to be"
"You already have a BA degree that you could use someday"
"You already have 2 jobs in health care that are supporting you"
It's just so frustrating that so many people I know have taken this class and passed it. They all say that it was hard, but they all passed. So maybe I'm being a little too hard on myself or maybe I have some sort of learning deficit when it comes to sciences.
I'm just going to do the best I can and see what happens. I hate school and I can't believe I'm about to sign myself up for this torture for another ~3 years.