Today's not going to be a good day...
I had two separate nightmares last night - one that I'd been kidnapped and the other that I was being held at gunpoint. Neither upset me too much as I woke very soon after the scariness began and didn't take more than a second or two to fully realize they were dreams, but they seriously disrupted my sleep.
On top of that, I'm stressing over my brother. I inadvertently hurt his feelings and he won't be coming to my tiny little birthday party and I almost wish I hadn't invited anyone, but that would be silly because what's the point of baking a cake if you don't have people to share it with? Argh! I'm feeling very low about this. Even worse about the fact that he hasn't patched things up with his kid and it's been since November. I don't know how he *can* go that long without him, but in a way it's not my business. In another way, it's sort of spoiled my birthday, so my impulse is to just bully him into manning up about it, but I don't think that's possible.
I just want to scream. And I know that Tom will be in a cross mood tonight, because his boss messed up his schedule - Tom's driving across town to discover that his training session there is *next week.* His boss called to fix the situation after he left. If we still had cell phones, I could call and let him know, but we don't, so he'll just have to wait 'til he gets there, and that's gonna make him cranky.
Argh! I want a do-over.
On top of that, I'm stressing over my brother. I inadvertently hurt his feelings and he won't be coming to my tiny little birthday party and I almost wish I hadn't invited anyone, but that would be silly because what's the point of baking a cake if you don't have people to share it with? Argh! I'm feeling very low about this. Even worse about the fact that he hasn't patched things up with his kid and it's been since November. I don't know how he *can* go that long without him, but in a way it's not my business. In another way, it's sort of spoiled my birthday, so my impulse is to just bully him into manning up about it, but I don't think that's possible.
I just want to scream. And I know that Tom will be in a cross mood tonight, because his boss messed up his schedule - Tom's driving across town to discover that his training session there is *next week.* His boss called to fix the situation after he left. If we still had cell phones, I could call and let him know, but we don't, so he'll just have to wait 'til he gets there, and that's gonna make him cranky.
Argh! I want a do-over.