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WELL FUCK this really sucks i just typed a shitload then tried to do something, went back and it all was gone. that really really sucks so now im just going to say it all again. Well fuck, lets see here. I went to a speech and debate tournament, today, well technically it was yesterday since its now 2 o'clock in the morning. Why the fuck am I up so late. I'm tired as hell, have a cold, and am just in a shitty shitty mood. Why dont I go to sleep. Ya back to the tournament, I didn't place in anything (WHAT A BIG FUCKIN' SURPRISE) UGH. Ya, I've come to realize that ive never really succeeded in life. My life is just one big story of pointless meaningless problems that only exsist in my mind and make me a very pathetic person. Ya thats kinda like what wendy would be saying to me, well thats if she still talked to me at all anymore. But hey I dont really expect her to anymore. I'm nothing but a memory and if she saw me probably an eyesore. The truth is I dont really think that anyone wants me in there life, well with the exception of my friend emily who i dont think would be able to live with herself if I dont help her out sometimes. Sorry Emmy if u dont like what im saying but really I dont know what the fuck im saying, I'm just really tired and in a really shitty mood right now so im really sorry for what im saying. Ya well back to the tournament finally, I met a lot of really cool people again. I guess that may be what im really in it for. Meeting interesting people with similar interests and hobbies as I do. Ya and everyone there is really nice. Thats whats really cool about it all, I see people there and ask them for directions or something and they give me a friendly reply and then usually i begin to have a friendly, intelligent, conversation with them. Then later on in the day, near the end I might see them again and then they shake my hand and say it was a pleasure to meet me and they hope to see me again at another tournament. Now thats something i dont hear that often "I hope to see you again". Ya thats a rarity in my life, where people actually enjoy my presence enough that they want to see me again. Ya, most of my friends really arent good ones. They would just hang with me if i go up to them. Im never invited to shit. Maybe i just complain too much. Now fuck whatever the hell im saying and back to the tournament. I met this really amazing girl there, Leslie. She's beautiful, intelligent, sophisticated, and very sweet. She has a heart of gold and a soul that could be compared to a celestialy sent symbol of sublimity. Only if I had told her how I felt. I am unfortunatly, most likely, never going to be able to fix my stupidity and tell her how I feel. If anyone knows anyway that they can help me, please, please, please, please do. E-mai me or something if you can. Well then after the tournament, I went home then went to my friend Jami's (who I really dont see enough of) Christmas party where I just went outside most of the time to blow off steem since I was angry with myself for no telling Leslie how i felt. I met her boyfriend Barrak who I have heard SO much about. He is by far one of the nicest people that I have ever met and is a very kind person that i think only looks for resolutions in a world of problems. He and Jami are really perfect together. Hahaha Barrak just nod your head and say ya. heheh. Well ya That was my weekend so far and I cant believe I've only gone through Saturday and all this has happened to me. Well this is long enough, so I think it's now safe to say I can go to sleep. Oh ya I also met Jenny's boyfriend. He is a very cool person and is really nice. You've done well Jenny. And Kris second really isnt that bad at least you placed in something. I didnt get shit. Oh and how could I forget one of the Causes of all my Problems. FUCK YOU MUKAI!!!! bastard starts doing review notes for the mid-term and im finishing a test and i have like harcore ADD. That was so fucking hard to finish that test. I can't believe he did that! FUCKER!!! I FUCKING HATE YOU!! GO TO AFRICA BITCH, FINALLY ILL BE RID OF YOU!!!
P.S. People please leave more than 3 comments on this entry. Im kind of sick of seeing the max total of replys being 3. Its just really repetitive and annoying.