things learned.
2006 was the year to be hip, I struggeled the entire way to get back to cool, and so far I"ve come up short. But I still have two more days left.
If I had to give 2006 a tagline, something to sum it up and what it was for me I think I would call it
"The year I wasted trying to get over a boy I I really liked in 2005"
lame, huh?
maybe. It's funny though I keep uncovering new and uninvited ways he has become a part of me, and I think, "Crap, he totally shredded my left ventrical in a thousand different pieces and to add insult to injury he somehow managed to filter into my bloodstream."
seriously though all of my thoughts are influenced by him and my experience with him in one way or another. His influence has manifest itself in close relationships, in memories, in opinions, even in my most personal hopes and dreams that have blatantly nothing to do with him or love or anything of that nature seem to be fundamentally attached to him.
That totally pisses me off. When someone rejects you the last thing you want is to be stuck with them in this sort of way.
what I found today was a big secret place that hasn't ever been affected by him. which is cool.