Before I go to bed
So its like 12:30 am again and I am still not in bed...I have no idea what is going on with that. I think the baby like to stay up late. I am going out of my mind or head (physically and mentally) hormones and that is my answer. I am breaking out with pimples and eczema and I can't do anything about it because the medicines to treat them gets absorb by the body and could hurt the body. So I am going around looking like a fat 13 years old girl that itches alot.
Today I totally got some awesome baby furniture from my cousin in law. I got a baby lamp, some toys, a swinger, and a basanett (not sure on how to spell that). Regardless, it was like over $150 worth of stuff. I love that fact that I have rich relatives. It is stored at my grandma in law till I need it because if I have it now I will be playing with the stuff till it broke and besides I have no room for it.
So Ernie is leaving on June 23rd but we have to say our goodbyes on June 21st. I keep thinking that it isn't really happening and that things will be the same way as it always been but I know its not. I am worried that things will be different when he comes back or even while he is away. I mean for the first 3 months he will be in the states but after that he won't. How are we going to handle it? I know we will be able to email and what not but its not the same. I mean am I going to feel the same way when he gets back? Is he? Are we going to just stay together for the baby? I am really scared of what might or could happen. What if the nay-sayers are right? That we won't make it because we are too young and that we were too far apart from each other to make it work?
Ok going to bed now because I am really freaked.
Today I totally got some awesome baby furniture from my cousin in law. I got a baby lamp, some toys, a swinger, and a basanett (not sure on how to spell that). Regardless, it was like over $150 worth of stuff. I love that fact that I have rich relatives. It is stored at my grandma in law till I need it because if I have it now I will be playing with the stuff till it broke and besides I have no room for it.
So Ernie is leaving on June 23rd but we have to say our goodbyes on June 21st. I keep thinking that it isn't really happening and that things will be the same way as it always been but I know its not. I am worried that things will be different when he comes back or even while he is away. I mean for the first 3 months he will be in the states but after that he won't. How are we going to handle it? I know we will be able to email and what not but its not the same. I mean am I going to feel the same way when he gets back? Is he? Are we going to just stay together for the baby? I am really scared of what might or could happen. What if the nay-sayers are right? That we won't make it because we are too young and that we were too far apart from each other to make it work?
Ok going to bed now because I am really freaked.