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[marlboro_reds]

hopefully i'll never have to pay for all the things my body did while my soul was away.hopefully.

recently there has been love in the air
amisdt bundles of despair.
i've been searching for something that i must wait for.
why do angels have to suffer?
painful and sorrow hours of loniliness and agony.
I can't save the world.
though i try and then my resources run out and i turn rabid, cruel, and spiteful.
what is the point to all of this?
oh religion, religion
there was always deception
but at least there was answers
and now i cross paths of those who just accept
accept the pain and try to have as much fun as possible
while maintaining some level of morality.
levels of morality
what used to be one of my greatest assests
has now under gone self deprication.
will i make it?
am i capable of not hurting those who love me the most?
is the away out of my power trip...........
will i submit to my true self?
or will i forever live between two people, two towns,
and essentially two realities.