Have you ever

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had the sudden realization that all of your problems are your own fault? For me it wasn't very sudden, but repeatedly, for years. I got into a fight with Stephen because I can't fucking hack being a mom and working and going to school. Right now I'm not even going to school. I literally have 5 assignments to do, and I am fumbling. I'm more than fumbling. I'm straight fucking up.

This writing isn't even coherent. I should sleep but I can't.