Find Me
This year has been something else. It seems that every year just gets worse n worse. Sometimes i feel like my life peaked between 2000 and 2003. since then it hasn't been all that great. Lately I've been feeling extremely lost...wondering if i've made the right choices in my life thus far. there are plenty of things i would have done differently, i know that. I dunno, it's that time of year...ill b over it soon enough im sure. I've just been in a funk, and honestly it's been a funk for quite a while, since i found out that i wasn't moving to florida. I mean i have a good life. I can't pay my bills sometimes but i have a couple of people who love me...i just want more for myself. i feel like i don't belong here in austin, but i went back to beaumont and i know i definitely don't belong there, i don't know why i have those feelings but when i get to beaumont this huge cloud comes over me and tries to push me out as fast as possible. every time i go my visits get shorter and shorter and few in between. i just wish i could find myself and where i belong.