Fading
I feel like Im falling.............
I find myself feeling things tonight that I havent in a long time, Things I swore that I would never let myself feel again. I dont know which was is up or down, the way used to be so clear to me, so black and white and now for the first time in a long time, I dont know what to do.
I am the way I am because for the entire time that I have been aware, I have been shown time and time again that if I didnt fight tooth and nail, if I didnt stand my ground no matter if I was right or wrong that everything would be taken from me, that I would become what the world thought I was. Since childhood these things have been in my mind, through my teen years and into my very early 20's I learned some very harsh lessons that only proved my suspicions to be true.
I cant help but think I know exactly whats going to happen. I hope Im wrong...........
I find myself feeling things tonight that I havent in a long time, Things I swore that I would never let myself feel again. I dont know which was is up or down, the way used to be so clear to me, so black and white and now for the first time in a long time, I dont know what to do.
I am the way I am because for the entire time that I have been aware, I have been shown time and time again that if I didnt fight tooth and nail, if I didnt stand my ground no matter if I was right or wrong that everything would be taken from me, that I would become what the world thought I was. Since childhood these things have been in my mind, through my teen years and into my very early 20's I learned some very harsh lessons that only proved my suspicions to be true.
I cant help but think I know exactly whats going to happen. I hope Im wrong...........