I'm back baby!!!
Ok so I kind of forgot about this here live journal. Woops. Well I'm here now and mainly because i have no where better to be I guess. So far this weekend has really brought me down a notch or two when it should have been amazing. First I went to Myle's Grad party which was really fun and all but i just wish Mouse, or Steph and Kris or Tank or anyone else I knew had come. But Grant and Katie and Fred and AJ were there so that made it a good night. Carrie was there too but she didn't say goodbye to me so I'm mad at her. It was cool though because David My step brother came and I got to introduce him to all my friends. He is like my best bud in the world and I'm glad you guys got to know him. The other highlight was that I got to throw down some stand up. At first I wasn't to sure about doing it because the first guy bombed and like the whole party walked away. But I did pretty well and brought the group back, for the next guy to chase away. hehe. But it was cool because I know none of my friends there had ever seen me perform before so that was nice.
Then tonight was David's birthday and me, him, and his friends went out to a club in LA. It was pretty fun and we had a good time. So I'm sure you are saying "Mark what's the problem? It sounds like a great weekend." Well here was the only problem. As you may or may not know I am single. Did everyone catch that? I AM SINGLE! I have been single for damn near a year. But lately (ever sense I saw Garden State, don't ask me why?) I have been feeling really lonely. Which is weird because I never really cared until now. So I was kind of hoping I would meet someone at either party, but guess what I didn't. In fact me and David got shot down many a time at the club. Then at Myle's everyone was coupling up and finding people even Fred. Plus all my buddies are shackin up together. (which by the way I'm cool with. I love you guys and I hope you all stay happy together.)
I don't know I'm just feeling like I'm not really here you know? Like I'm just an idea or a state of mind. Like everyone thinks I am a great addition to a group or a party or whatever but no one wants me for themselves. Haha then tonight one of David's friends told me that her and all the other girls decided that if I was older they would hit on me. Haha great so I only have to wait like two more years. I can do that. Can't I?
P.S.
I just wanted to let some steam out so do me a favor and don't leave me comments saying how cool you think I am. Thats not why I wrote this. You guys are my friends and I want you to know whats going on in my life, but please don't take this as me asking you for compliments. Plus if you say something like, "Any girl would want you." or "You will find someone in no time." It will just make me more depressed that I have nothing now.
P.S.S.
Did anyone ever notice that in the mood box the word "loved" is right below the word "lonely". How fuckin depressing.
Then tonight was David's birthday and me, him, and his friends went out to a club in LA. It was pretty fun and we had a good time. So I'm sure you are saying "Mark what's the problem? It sounds like a great weekend." Well here was the only problem. As you may or may not know I am single. Did everyone catch that? I AM SINGLE! I have been single for damn near a year. But lately (ever sense I saw Garden State, don't ask me why?) I have been feeling really lonely. Which is weird because I never really cared until now. So I was kind of hoping I would meet someone at either party, but guess what I didn't. In fact me and David got shot down many a time at the club. Then at Myle's everyone was coupling up and finding people even Fred. Plus all my buddies are shackin up together. (which by the way I'm cool with. I love you guys and I hope you all stay happy together.)
I don't know I'm just feeling like I'm not really here you know? Like I'm just an idea or a state of mind. Like everyone thinks I am a great addition to a group or a party or whatever but no one wants me for themselves. Haha then tonight one of David's friends told me that her and all the other girls decided that if I was older they would hit on me. Haha great so I only have to wait like two more years. I can do that. Can't I?
P.S.
I just wanted to let some steam out so do me a favor and don't leave me comments saying how cool you think I am. Thats not why I wrote this. You guys are my friends and I want you to know whats going on in my life, but please don't take this as me asking you for compliments. Plus if you say something like, "Any girl would want you." or "You will find someone in no time." It will just make me more depressed that I have nothing now.
P.S.S.
Did anyone ever notice that in the mood box the word "loved" is right below the word "lonely". How fuckin depressing.