RL rant
Ok, this was meant to behind a cut, but im tired to fight with it.
I havent done one of these in ages! oh well. OK, this will proberly sound more like a whine that a rant! lol
I hate my shrink. Really I do. I've not even met her yet. I'm going to meet her on Feb 14th (i hate saying the V word) oh joy, one of the worst days of the year and i have to see my new shrink. Shoot me now
Ive now been told i'm not depressed! (hence the new shrink) now i think i have a personailty disorder and have to a 2-4 hour test. Apparently there are different types, ten in all *headdesk* I want to be normal, y'know have a job, have friends, have a fucking life. Instead im scared of people *i kow, im sad*, scared of leaving the house at times, scared of nearly everything and it drives me nuts (no change there then) urgh, i hate living, i want to be with my nan. My nan who spoiled me, my nan, who meant the world to me, my nan who i had to watch die. That was one of the worst things i have ever been through. Which was the main reason i stopped beliveing in God, why would he want a little child to see that? it doesnt make any sense.
So anyway, yesterday was really bad, i hate yesterday. Yesterday was fine, until i blew up, i said some things to my mum that i shouldnt have,i really hurt her, i thought she was going to throw me out. Once i had calmed down enough to talk, we managed to talk things through and we're OK now.
I met my ex-best friend as well yesterday, while i was in town, what she was doing here i have no idea, she just was, we started talking and things were going OK until she started talking about ourt school days (she got me into a lot of trouble, she even talked me into somking!) things started to get nasty and then she says 'i bet you fake being ill' and other things so i showed her my left arm-which shut her up. She left after that. Bitch. Meeting her again, reminded me why i hate her, shes a stupid, stupid woman, that doesnt have any common sense.
Ok onto happy things. This is the sexiest gay man on EARTH
his name
is Mark Feehily, i love him and his band (Westlife, website here-www.westlife.com)
Ok so they're not HIS but he is one of the founding members :o)
I havent done one of these in ages! oh well. OK, this will proberly sound more like a whine that a rant! lol
I hate my shrink. Really I do. I've not even met her yet. I'm going to meet her on Feb 14th (i hate saying the V word) oh joy, one of the worst days of the year and i have to see my new shrink. Shoot me now
Ive now been told i'm not depressed! (hence the new shrink) now i think i have a personailty disorder and have to a 2-4 hour test. Apparently there are different types, ten in all *headdesk* I want to be normal, y'know have a job, have friends, have a fucking life. Instead im scared of people *i kow, im sad*, scared of leaving the house at times, scared of nearly everything and it drives me nuts (no change there then) urgh, i hate living, i want to be with my nan. My nan who spoiled me, my nan, who meant the world to me, my nan who i had to watch die. That was one of the worst things i have ever been through. Which was the main reason i stopped beliveing in God, why would he want a little child to see that? it doesnt make any sense.
So anyway, yesterday was really bad, i hate yesterday. Yesterday was fine, until i blew up, i said some things to my mum that i shouldnt have,i really hurt her, i thought she was going to throw me out. Once i had calmed down enough to talk, we managed to talk things through and we're OK now.
I met my ex-best friend as well yesterday, while i was in town, what she was doing here i have no idea, she just was, we started talking and things were going OK until she started talking about ourt school days (she got me into a lot of trouble, she even talked me into somking!) things started to get nasty and then she says 'i bet you fake being ill' and other things so i showed her my left arm-which shut her up. She left after that. Bitch. Meeting her again, reminded me why i hate her, shes a stupid, stupid woman, that doesnt have any common sense.
Ok onto happy things. This is the sexiest gay man on EARTH
his name
is Mark Feehily, i love him and his band (Westlife, website here-www.westlife.com)
Ok so they're not HIS but he is one of the founding members :o)