When you're broken and beat down...
I'm going to plan the karate studio's end of the year party this year. I'm tired of Vanessa getting all the credit for doing things, while I can't seem to do anything right.
I'm getting tired of being at this studio. I want my own. It seems like I get a little more worn down every day I come in. Hmmm... This might take some planning.
I want to be able to move whenever I want, but I also want a permanent location somewhere. If it were around here, I could sell it. But then again, what other opportunities are there, that don't involve me opening up right away? What can I do that will make me money until I find a permanent location? Where would I even want said permanent location, to be located?
I don't want to stay in Phillips Ranch for the rest of my life. That's a no-brainer. Some people may ask: "Don't you have any pride? Do you care about where you live?" Well, I guess the answer is: Fuck no.
I've never wanted to stay here, and it's almost a fucking marvel to me that I haven't left yet. What am I doing?
I don't like feeling like I'm not in control of my life. I don't want to be here, but I am. I don't want to stay, but it looks like I have to for now. I can't open up a studio for almost free unless this one is a success, which it's not, and I'm getting along less and less with the people I work with.
I wonder if I can transfer studios, and still make at least as much as I do now (but hopefully more), and be happier at a different location. I wonder if that questions my loyalty. But don't I have to do what's right for me? I wouldn't mind working at the studio in Pasadena, or Glendora. Or maybe even asking Shihan Jahan-Vash if I can manage a studio somewhere else for him.
I might have to put these questions on hold until the end of Haunt. But they definitely need to get answered. For me.
I'm getting tired of being at this studio. I want my own. It seems like I get a little more worn down every day I come in. Hmmm... This might take some planning.
I want to be able to move whenever I want, but I also want a permanent location somewhere. If it were around here, I could sell it. But then again, what other opportunities are there, that don't involve me opening up right away? What can I do that will make me money until I find a permanent location? Where would I even want said permanent location, to be located?
I don't want to stay in Phillips Ranch for the rest of my life. That's a no-brainer. Some people may ask: "Don't you have any pride? Do you care about where you live?" Well, I guess the answer is: Fuck no.
I've never wanted to stay here, and it's almost a fucking marvel to me that I haven't left yet. What am I doing?
I don't like feeling like I'm not in control of my life. I don't want to be here, but I am. I don't want to stay, but it looks like I have to for now. I can't open up a studio for almost free unless this one is a success, which it's not, and I'm getting along less and less with the people I work with.
I wonder if I can transfer studios, and still make at least as much as I do now (but hopefully more), and be happier at a different location. I wonder if that questions my loyalty. But don't I have to do what's right for me? I wouldn't mind working at the studio in Pasadena, or Glendora. Or maybe even asking Shihan Jahan-Vash if I can manage a studio somewhere else for him.
I might have to put these questions on hold until the end of Haunt. But they definitely need to get answered. For me.