i dont fucking know, i dont fucking know
why the fuck do i feel like this? i have no fucking clue. earlier everything was great. now it seems like every thing has fallen apart. right now i just feel like saying "fuck it" to everything in life, and not just school, i literally mean everything. i feel like i dont know what to do. i wish there was something other than drugs and medication for shit like this that didnt take up a lot of time like meditation that would make this better. im open for ideas. "its all to much, for me to take" (beatles) i dont know what i want to do in the future, i dont know if ill be able to take on the future, i dont know what i want, i dont know if theres a mother fucking god, i dont know what the fuck im doing here, i dont know if i like a girl, i dont know how to deal with all of this shit, and i dont know an infinite amount more than all of that. why cant there be more fucking answers!? why do i care about this? why do i have to be like this? i just want to know some fucking answers. why cant i get them? if somebody knows some answers please feel free to share, because im all ears. i feel sick.