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So....I basically live at work. I avoid getting involved with girls at work because its been a rule I've had for my whole working life. I am not in the real world enough to make a relationship work. I've proven this many times. Tried and failed plenty of times. A year and a half ago a girl started at work that is every kind of awesome imaginable. I didn't think she would work here long. Most people don't. Plus its work. I have my rule. But here it is a year and a half later and she's still here and I've come to realise maybe I should rethink my work rule since I basically live here. The real world isn't an option anymore and I feel that since it's not maybe work should be allowed. Of course then there's the fact she's probably not interested and she's not going to be sticking around this job as long as I will. Also she makes me really happy. I'd hate to think that something could happen that would change that. I think it all boils down to I'm an idiot and scared. Chances are I will tell her how I feel the day she quits. I'm awesome like that.