What was I thinking?
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Well...HhHmMm, lets see where to begin? Ok how about here, Men. Frankly all I have to say is that I want one, a good one. Where are they? Can anyone tell me that?
Ok just recently I got back together with someone from my past. Ok well I wouldn’t say got back “together” but we hung out. Why I decided to hang out with him is beyond me? I think maybe it’s because when I talked to him I remembered how he made me feel, like no one ever could. But in the end I think that I just ended up being a booty call. Seeing as how I’ve hardly heard from him, or seen him since. And it’s been a little more than a week now. And his exact words were “I don’t just sleep with someone and not see them again.” Was that just something that was said to get me to…well you know.
And when I did talk to him it was because of me. Because I called him, which isn’t a big deal, but if he liked me as much as he said he did wouldn’t he call me to want to talk. Or when we did talk, don’t you think that he would want to talk longer and not say can I call you back in 10 mins and not call, or tell me my phone is charging I can’t talk, or say something to make it seem like he didn’t want to talk? I can understand if you forget, because of anyone I’m one of those people who will always forget to call you back, but every time? I don’t know, I’m just confused I guess.
And when we did hang out he gave me the impression like he didn’t want me to stop calling him, but I don’t want to be a bother. Cuz it seems like when I do call him 85% of the time he doesn’t answer.
But why does it have to be like this? Now I know it wouldn’t have worked out because well he’s leaving to go to New York to try to be a singer. Which I’m really glad for him because he will do great things, and I hope he stays in touch. But I wish that we would have something while he’s still here, because honestly I have never had anyone make me feel this way, never have I enjoyed kissing someone this much, and let me tell you its hard for me to kiss someone because I’m a picky kisser. No one has ever made my heart flutter, and actually made my knees weak when I looked at him in the eyes. (Which I might add he has amazing eyes.) And he made me feel like that in the past, and he still makes me feel like this today, even after 2 years of hardly any word from each other. I have to say he was quite hard to get over. The last time I saw him, before recently was summer 2003. So anyway all in all I guess I will end this entry with….What was I thinking? I knew that I would fall in love with him again. I mean there was a reason I avoided him for the past two years.
I can understand he’s busy and all, because I am too. But I just wonder, what were his intentions with me? I just want him to be honest. It will actually hurt me more to lead me on, than it would if I found out I was just a booty call.
AAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well...HhHmMm, lets see where to begin? Ok how about here, Men. Frankly all I have to say is that I want one, a good one. Where are they? Can anyone tell me that?
Ok just recently I got back together with someone from my past. Ok well I wouldn’t say got back “together” but we hung out. Why I decided to hang out with him is beyond me? I think maybe it’s because when I talked to him I remembered how he made me feel, like no one ever could. But in the end I think that I just ended up being a booty call. Seeing as how I’ve hardly heard from him, or seen him since. And it’s been a little more than a week now. And his exact words were “I don’t just sleep with someone and not see them again.” Was that just something that was said to get me to…well you know.
And when I did talk to him it was because of me. Because I called him, which isn’t a big deal, but if he liked me as much as he said he did wouldn’t he call me to want to talk. Or when we did talk, don’t you think that he would want to talk longer and not say can I call you back in 10 mins and not call, or tell me my phone is charging I can’t talk, or say something to make it seem like he didn’t want to talk? I can understand if you forget, because of anyone I’m one of those people who will always forget to call you back, but every time? I don’t know, I’m just confused I guess.
And when we did hang out he gave me the impression like he didn’t want me to stop calling him, but I don’t want to be a bother. Cuz it seems like when I do call him 85% of the time he doesn’t answer.
But why does it have to be like this? Now I know it wouldn’t have worked out because well he’s leaving to go to New York to try to be a singer. Which I’m really glad for him because he will do great things, and I hope he stays in touch. But I wish that we would have something while he’s still here, because honestly I have never had anyone make me feel this way, never have I enjoyed kissing someone this much, and let me tell you its hard for me to kiss someone because I’m a picky kisser. No one has ever made my heart flutter, and actually made my knees weak when I looked at him in the eyes. (Which I might add he has amazing eyes.) And he made me feel like that in the past, and he still makes me feel like this today, even after 2 years of hardly any word from each other. I have to say he was quite hard to get over. The last time I saw him, before recently was summer 2003. So anyway all in all I guess I will end this entry with….What was I thinking? I knew that I would fall in love with him again. I mean there was a reason I avoided him for the past two years.
I can understand he’s busy and all, because I am too. But I just wonder, what were his intentions with me? I just want him to be honest. It will actually hurt me more to lead me on, than it would if I found out I was just a booty call.
AAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!