true colors never seemed so black ...... if only for a moment
yesterday i sat with my mother after a great thanksgiving ( i fucking love turkey ) and talked about the sour look i had on my face all day ....... ( she always seems to read thru my bullshit )
i dont expect anyone to ever put themselves in my shoes ... in my short life ive always tried to see the other side of the story .... to look at the other person and be sensitive to there feelings because i believe it's key to any relationship let alone friendship ...... and because they havent its easy for them to sit in judgment of me preaching my overreaction ...... whats even better is there claim of my overreaction comes after an apology ...
i realize that nothing that i found offensive and disrespectful about that evening was intensional ... those pictures werent taken to purposely hurt me .... and dani's comment no matter how rude and inappropriate at the time ... wasnt meant to cause me any pain ..... but at the same time i dont think any of them really know whats gone on between raeanna and i other then some loose lipped gossip ....... and even then who wants to hang out with there girlfriends friends only to have them pull out pictures of her and another guy .......... only to top it off by telling each other how much the 2 of them should be married ......... needless to say i not only left that house questioning the strength of an already beat up relationship .... but also how much the ppl in her life think of me .... it hurt my feelings ... it built up an already active insecurity ... it's honestly made me wonder if im setting myself up for another broken relationship ....
i waited to post this comment to keep from saying things i didnt mean ...... in the hopes that my anger and insecurities wouldnt do my talking for me ....... either way much like everything else that goes wrong ..... i can only put it behind me and try not to allow it to get the best of me ....... this situation isnt worth holding anything against anyone ...... but to a certain extent i cant help but feel like i got the hint ...........
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i dont expect anyone to ever put themselves in my shoes ... in my short life ive always tried to see the other side of the story .... to look at the other person and be sensitive to there feelings because i believe it's key to any relationship let alone friendship ...... and because they havent its easy for them to sit in judgment of me preaching my overreaction ...... whats even better is there claim of my overreaction comes after an apology ...
i realize that nothing that i found offensive and disrespectful about that evening was intensional ... those pictures werent taken to purposely hurt me .... and dani's comment no matter how rude and inappropriate at the time ... wasnt meant to cause me any pain ..... but at the same time i dont think any of them really know whats gone on between raeanna and i other then some loose lipped gossip ....... and even then who wants to hang out with there girlfriends friends only to have them pull out pictures of her and another guy .......... only to top it off by telling each other how much the 2 of them should be married ......... needless to say i not only left that house questioning the strength of an already beat up relationship .... but also how much the ppl in her life think of me .... it hurt my feelings ... it built up an already active insecurity ... it's honestly made me wonder if im setting myself up for another broken relationship ....
i waited to post this comment to keep from saying things i didnt mean ...... in the hopes that my anger and insecurities wouldnt do my talking for me ....... either way much like everything else that goes wrong ..... i can only put it behind me and try not to allow it to get the best of me ....... this situation isnt worth holding anything against anyone ...... but to a certain extent i cant help but feel like i got the hint ...........
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