Brent Cole

Mar 16, 2008 14:41

Sorry to come back with such a downer, but I gotta

I don't know much about heaven....I don't know if people can hear us or how things work up there.....but if you can hear me Brent, I want to tell you how much I love you. And that I miss you so much already.

I'm still trying to fit my brain around the fact that I'll never hang out with you again when I go home to Louisiana. And at the same time I can hear you telling how everything will be OK, and don't get too upset about stuff. You were great for leveling me out when I got nervous or sad. Maybe you wouldn't want me to spend my time being sad about this......but I can't help it. I admired you for all the obvious reasons, but also for your strength in times just like this. I remember being a pallbearer at your dad's funeral and how......just.....easy, you were through the whole thing. If it had been my dad, I couldn't have handled it like you did.

I hope you knew how much I thought of you as a person and a musician. I hope I said "thank you" enough. I hope you knew how much you poured into me, and all us kids from the hometown. You taught me how to be a good drummer and a good friend. I wouldn't be the man or musician I am today if it hadn't been for you. Truly.

I hung on every word you said, and playing with your approval was the best feeling in the world. I'll miss that groove, and your personality that was behind it. You and that green Pedulla.... Every time I sit behind a kit and I think I've had a good night, I think "I wonder what Brent woulda thought?" And on the nights I'm not feeling it, I think "Man, I'm glad Brent wasn't here to hear that." You were the standard I aspired to, personally and musically. I don't know what you'll be doing up there.....probably playing with the best heaven has to offer.....but maybe now you can hear me over here from time to time.....and I hope I measure up....as a man, a friend, a son, and a musician.

I always wanted to be just like you, Brent. You were like my big brother. I'll do whatever I can for your family, always. Thanks for coming over here last year and staying with me. It was great to hang out with you again and play with you one more time. I promise I will do the best I can to live my life so that I'll see you again one day. Everything you poured into me, I promise not to waste it.

I love you and I will never forget you. Miss you so much.
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