In response to some various peices of literature I just read.
Men have feelings too. That's all I have to say about that.
Onto the next subject:
And for what? And for what? So I can get stabbed again because someone needs my help one more time? Fuck that. I appreciate the help I recieved when I received it, and I more than enough paid my dues back. I am even, clean slate. And that's it. I can't care for these people wrapped up in all these things. It's just like trying to convert someone as far as I am concerned. If people are capitalistic and ignorant and dishonest, so be it. I am finished trying to show the "right path." It isn't right, it's just my own way. If you are happy doing what you are doing, cool, and if I don't like it, I can leave you alone, or tolerate being around you. Those are my options. I am sick of people shoving ideology in my face about polotics, and world veiws. It just gets on my nerves now. Unless someone wants to admit to being miserable and wants to change it, leave them the fuck alone, let them do whatever, it isn't affecting you any more than you let it. You can't change people, people can only change themselves. Unless of course you want to brainwash them or something. I don't get it, that's all. Why should I give a damn? Am I not good enough as it is? I don't need to change the world, with or without a group. If I were to die this minute, I would have people saying that I changed their lives for the better at my funeral, and more those people than people saying that I made their lives worse. So what? What else should I have to do? I help people, in my own way, I am kind and generous, what else do you need from me? It starts me thinking maybe I shouldn't be so much anymore. Maybe I should have people have to prove themselves to me. Why not? it seems as though I am not good enough most of the time in many people's eyes, and I do the best I can. So in a final response, fuck it, I have tried my hand, and it didn't work, and it won't work, so I'll go about my business the way I see it best, and you can have your revolution, I just want no part of it is all. Even in a world where everything is perfect in your eyes, people will still bitch, because that is what people do, and there is no changing that. I firmly believe it is in our nature to complain.
On to the next subject, where I will use a story as an analogy:
There once was a man who loved to climb mountains. He climbed every mountain he lived by. He tried to explain his love for climbing these mountains, but no one understood. So, because he felt his need to prove that what he loved would make him great, he climbed higher mountains that were farther away. Soon he had climbed all the tallest mountains in the region. Still, no one understood what made him great by climbing these mountains. So he climbed all the mountains of the world, every rock he could find, and he came back with proof of each expedition, and all his village did was scoff at him. After awhile, the man started to live on the mountain and became this evil thing.
Someone who reads this will understand what that analogy leads to, but it will only be that person that fully understands it.
Onto the next subject:
And for what? And for what? So I can get stabbed again because someone needs my help one more time? Fuck that. I appreciate the help I recieved when I received it, and I more than enough paid my dues back. I am even, clean slate. And that's it. I can't care for these people wrapped up in all these things. It's just like trying to convert someone as far as I am concerned. If people are capitalistic and ignorant and dishonest, so be it. I am finished trying to show the "right path." It isn't right, it's just my own way. If you are happy doing what you are doing, cool, and if I don't like it, I can leave you alone, or tolerate being around you. Those are my options. I am sick of people shoving ideology in my face about polotics, and world veiws. It just gets on my nerves now. Unless someone wants to admit to being miserable and wants to change it, leave them the fuck alone, let them do whatever, it isn't affecting you any more than you let it. You can't change people, people can only change themselves. Unless of course you want to brainwash them or something. I don't get it, that's all. Why should I give a damn? Am I not good enough as it is? I don't need to change the world, with or without a group. If I were to die this minute, I would have people saying that I changed their lives for the better at my funeral, and more those people than people saying that I made their lives worse. So what? What else should I have to do? I help people, in my own way, I am kind and generous, what else do you need from me? It starts me thinking maybe I shouldn't be so much anymore. Maybe I should have people have to prove themselves to me. Why not? it seems as though I am not good enough most of the time in many people's eyes, and I do the best I can. So in a final response, fuck it, I have tried my hand, and it didn't work, and it won't work, so I'll go about my business the way I see it best, and you can have your revolution, I just want no part of it is all. Even in a world where everything is perfect in your eyes, people will still bitch, because that is what people do, and there is no changing that. I firmly believe it is in our nature to complain.
On to the next subject, where I will use a story as an analogy:
There once was a man who loved to climb mountains. He climbed every mountain he lived by. He tried to explain his love for climbing these mountains, but no one understood. So, because he felt his need to prove that what he loved would make him great, he climbed higher mountains that were farther away. Soon he had climbed all the tallest mountains in the region. Still, no one understood what made him great by climbing these mountains. So he climbed all the mountains of the world, every rock he could find, and he came back with proof of each expedition, and all his village did was scoff at him. After awhile, the man started to live on the mountain and became this evil thing.
Someone who reads this will understand what that analogy leads to, but it will only be that person that fully understands it.