because i'm doing nothing else.
being home. ah. im just thinking about old stuff, like writing ljs all the time in effing high school, senior year i guess. and all the mistakes. ooohhhh the mistakes. and christmas, when nick asked me (thanks to alex) to dance on top of my table to iron and wine - such great heights, i haven't kissed a guy when sober in a long time. the christmas before i came home from hawaii to like 8 sheets of paper with "We missed you!" on it, held down by batteries. I COLLECTED BATTERIES. i still collect batteries. hi danny. my icon is still of me and nick...i still like it. the ljs that people tried to cover up, like written in code but you always wanted the person to read it and tried to include hints so they knew who u were tlaking about. LJ DRAMA I DONT GET IT. UNFRIEND UNFRIEND. OH and the donksonology phase, which was more of a jim phase that turned into a jesse phase, good times. i have a chronic problem of thinking to much and not being able to stop. just overthinking things leads to BAD choices, just because you think about doing something over and over doesnt mean you have actually done it. it really feels like it does, tricky. and something on long distance relationships while i'm at it. they are possible but they also suck in every way possible and lead you to either depend on the person or grow apart...maybe thats a generalization. but really nick mccoll described christians in this way, they have imaginary friends, ones name is jesus and he can do miracles, can't all imaginary friends do something? at least be invisible. We all had them, most of us lost them at a young age...not the christians, anyway some other imaginary friends inclue santa, the tooth fairy, big foot, and long distance girl friends, and im talking like over an ocean and shit GERMANY WHAT THE FUCK. and i think this would be a good place to stop.