so god damned tired but hey its all good
Good morning (ew).
For some reason I can't sleep ... oh wait I know why. Ben emailed me tonight. He just was like hey what's up, this is what's going on in my life, what's up with you blah blah blah, Ben. I can't win.
I'm cold, I'm tired, and now I don't want to think about what is up his sleeve. Everyone said to me "he will contact you eventually" and I was like "go for it dude, I'll be totally ok with it"... and I am ok with it but I wonder what his intentions are. I really like Jon a LOT and the only concerns I have with him seem like nothing compared to the ones I had with Ben.
I just wish things were ok in my head & heart (yes, and wallet too).
Jon and shared (kind of) some secrets tonight and that was cool - I like that he opened up to me a little bit. I told him a little too regarding the surgery but didn't go full force into what it was about or anything, just that I chose to be in a hospital for 4 days for a particular reason. He doesn't push the issue and doesn't ask me why I have a scar on my belly... that's fucking great. :)
Ok I think I'm goin to try and go back to bed now. I hope that Ben does email me back and that we can be friends, but I am not counting chickens, hens, smiley faces, tostitos or jfk shows.
Gnight yall.
For some reason I can't sleep ... oh wait I know why. Ben emailed me tonight. He just was like hey what's up, this is what's going on in my life, what's up with you blah blah blah, Ben. I can't win.
I'm cold, I'm tired, and now I don't want to think about what is up his sleeve. Everyone said to me "he will contact you eventually" and I was like "go for it dude, I'll be totally ok with it"... and I am ok with it but I wonder what his intentions are. I really like Jon a LOT and the only concerns I have with him seem like nothing compared to the ones I had with Ben.
I just wish things were ok in my head & heart (yes, and wallet too).
Jon and shared (kind of) some secrets tonight and that was cool - I like that he opened up to me a little bit. I told him a little too regarding the surgery but didn't go full force into what it was about or anything, just that I chose to be in a hospital for 4 days for a particular reason. He doesn't push the issue and doesn't ask me why I have a scar on my belly... that's fucking great. :)
Ok I think I'm goin to try and go back to bed now. I hope that Ben does email me back and that we can be friends, but I am not counting chickens, hens, smiley faces, tostitos or jfk shows.
Gnight yall.