is it friday yet? Sheesh
So much to say yet not enough time to say it in (as usual).
Seems no matter what I do someone gets upset. I really care for Jon a lot and now that he's in my life I am happier than I think I was with Ben (ever). The only thing that concern me is the drinking because I want him to live a long healthy life. I guess also I'm not used to my significant others hanging out with my family as much but the boys seem to hit it off really really well and as cool as that may be I feel a little left out at times. Silly me I know but hey what can I say, its my journal I can bitch out as much as I need to.
I haven't been able to see Megan for a few days and I feel quite guilty about it considering she is leaving soon. I miss her already and she hasn't even gone yet. It sucks when someone you have such a bond with has to detach ties like this. I guess in a way it is good for her though as she needs to grow and learn and do her own thing.
I spent almost $500 at the dentist yesterday on my stupid teeth and I swear i want to kill someone. It sucks not having the $$ to do what I have to do AND what I want to do. Jon told my brother that he wants to get me something for valentines day and I have no idea what to get him, or worse, no money.
I truly care about this guy, he makes me laugh and smile and he loves to cudddle, even in his sleep.
I just wish that for one freaking day I was truly 100% ok with EVERYTHING (work, school, money, family, friends & love life). Seems when some things are up there is always something down. Right now Work, family & love life are fantastic and school, money & friends are suffering. One of these days I'll be balanced. Man I'm crushing on this guy... not good.
Want to hear something kind of weird journal of mine? When I went out to bowl with Jon and Micah and Megan I wore the sneakers that Ben got me and the shirt that Ris got me. I feel like no matter what happens in life they will always be a part of me so I carry them with me. Strange as that may sound it brings happiness into my thoughts.
Ok I think I'm going to call out so I can do my taxes and catch up on some much needed chore stuff.
Hope all is well in the world with all my "fans".
Hasta.
Seems no matter what I do someone gets upset. I really care for Jon a lot and now that he's in my life I am happier than I think I was with Ben (ever). The only thing that concern me is the drinking because I want him to live a long healthy life. I guess also I'm not used to my significant others hanging out with my family as much but the boys seem to hit it off really really well and as cool as that may be I feel a little left out at times. Silly me I know but hey what can I say, its my journal I can bitch out as much as I need to.
I haven't been able to see Megan for a few days and I feel quite guilty about it considering she is leaving soon. I miss her already and she hasn't even gone yet. It sucks when someone you have such a bond with has to detach ties like this. I guess in a way it is good for her though as she needs to grow and learn and do her own thing.
I spent almost $500 at the dentist yesterday on my stupid teeth and I swear i want to kill someone. It sucks not having the $$ to do what I have to do AND what I want to do. Jon told my brother that he wants to get me something for valentines day and I have no idea what to get him, or worse, no money.
I truly care about this guy, he makes me laugh and smile and he loves to cudddle, even in his sleep.
I just wish that for one freaking day I was truly 100% ok with EVERYTHING (work, school, money, family, friends & love life). Seems when some things are up there is always something down. Right now Work, family & love life are fantastic and school, money & friends are suffering. One of these days I'll be balanced. Man I'm crushing on this guy... not good.
Want to hear something kind of weird journal of mine? When I went out to bowl with Jon and Micah and Megan I wore the sneakers that Ben got me and the shirt that Ris got me. I feel like no matter what happens in life they will always be a part of me so I carry them with me. Strange as that may sound it brings happiness into my thoughts.
Ok I think I'm going to call out so I can do my taxes and catch up on some much needed chore stuff.
Hope all is well in the world with all my "fans".
Hasta.