keep on truckin.
so when i said everything was falling apart, i think i spoke too soon. who knows maybe change is good. but lately every bit of it seems to be bad.
i'm getting laid off. my last day is friday. so i've been on the search for a job. i have an interview tomorrow with UPS, we'll see how that goes. i really don't wanna work a second shift job, but i guess i'll have to take what i can get. it's just if i work second shift i won't see anyone. scotty, my mom and dad, and any of my friends, which i barely see now as it is.
i think i'm going to ask them if it will permanetly be second shift or if there will be an opportunity in the future to move to third or first. i just don't really want to take a job where i know i'm going to be unhappy. that just seems pointless to me.
who knows. everything works out for a reason i guess. and i worked second shift a lot when i worked at cheddars so i suppose it wouldn't be too bad, once i got use to it.
i really have been missing my friends lately. bur has her own thing going, and i honestly don't think drew is very found of me. not sure why but he seems like he doesn't want me around when ever i see them. i guess they need there time right now anyways, this is a big part of both their lives. i can't wait to experience that with jamie.
so the whole moving out and having a baby will be put on hold till i get this job situation figured out. hopefully jamie will be able to find a job as well so that we can actually make things work. it's gonna be hard, but i really wanna get my own place. and i can't wait to pursue having a baby. i look forward to that so much it's ridiculous. i'm even jealous of my friends because they get to experience being a mother. even the ones who said they wouldn't have kids... i always thought i'd have a baby before them and now they all have kids and i'm still not.
i guess everything works out for a reason and there has to be a reason that i don't have a kid yet. i just have this feeling that i need to be on my own, get my own place and everything before i have a baby. i want my kid to have a good life, not that if i had one living at home with my mom it would be bad, but i just would prefer it to be different. i don't want to live the same life as my sister.
things will work out, that's what i keep telling myself.
i'm honestly going to miss working at connextions. first of all i'm not good with change, so getting a new job is going to be weird. i've been here for over two years. and as much as i've bitched about it i really honestly enjoy my job and the people i work with (with a few exceptions)
oh well.
dueces.
i'm getting laid off. my last day is friday. so i've been on the search for a job. i have an interview tomorrow with UPS, we'll see how that goes. i really don't wanna work a second shift job, but i guess i'll have to take what i can get. it's just if i work second shift i won't see anyone. scotty, my mom and dad, and any of my friends, which i barely see now as it is.
i think i'm going to ask them if it will permanetly be second shift or if there will be an opportunity in the future to move to third or first. i just don't really want to take a job where i know i'm going to be unhappy. that just seems pointless to me.
who knows. everything works out for a reason i guess. and i worked second shift a lot when i worked at cheddars so i suppose it wouldn't be too bad, once i got use to it.
i really have been missing my friends lately. bur has her own thing going, and i honestly don't think drew is very found of me. not sure why but he seems like he doesn't want me around when ever i see them. i guess they need there time right now anyways, this is a big part of both their lives. i can't wait to experience that with jamie.
so the whole moving out and having a baby will be put on hold till i get this job situation figured out. hopefully jamie will be able to find a job as well so that we can actually make things work. it's gonna be hard, but i really wanna get my own place. and i can't wait to pursue having a baby. i look forward to that so much it's ridiculous. i'm even jealous of my friends because they get to experience being a mother. even the ones who said they wouldn't have kids... i always thought i'd have a baby before them and now they all have kids and i'm still not.
i guess everything works out for a reason and there has to be a reason that i don't have a kid yet. i just have this feeling that i need to be on my own, get my own place and everything before i have a baby. i want my kid to have a good life, not that if i had one living at home with my mom it would be bad, but i just would prefer it to be different. i don't want to live the same life as my sister.
things will work out, that's what i keep telling myself.
i'm honestly going to miss working at connextions. first of all i'm not good with change, so getting a new job is going to be weird. i've been here for over two years. and as much as i've bitched about it i really honestly enjoy my job and the people i work with (with a few exceptions)
oh well.
dueces.