freedom comes when you learn to let go
47: what food do you think should be banned from the universe?
Um, probably nothing. There's LOTS of stuff I don't like but there's no reason why someone else shouldn't enjoy it. Even that nasty surströmming that I know about only through Youtube. For some people out there I'm sure it's a beloved food and, moreover, might be the only protein or fish someone has available to them. Gotta do what you gotta do, right?
In the morning I'll have the report from my car inspection. I'm not sure what to expect but I know they're going to ding me on at least a couple things on the car, hopefully not more. I was able to duck out of work a bit early to make it to the dealership to find out about my financing and what my options are.
Turns out I can't lease again because of my bankruptcy, which blows, and my rate is 14-ish%. So higher than I wanted/hoped and I HAVE to buy a car now. I can't even BUY OUT my lease because I wouldn't be able to get it financed for a reasonable amount or something, I don't know. The numbers guy was talking terms I have the barest of understanding of.
I test drove a 2015 Fiat 500 and liked it well enough. Like, at this point I just need a car and it was sufficient enough. It's got 51k on it right now (remember, mine that's two years older only has a little over 22k), it's an automatic (I wanted a standard), and it's only a two-door (eh, it's not like I'm hauling around football teams or anything). So it's got very little of what I WANTED but at this point I don't care. I literally cannot do anything else and won't be able to do anything for six years when my bankruptcy is totally cleared off my records and, conveniently, my payments are done. I'll be paying roughly what I'm paying now for the lease, which is fine AND, depending on what $$ the inspection says I owe for damages on the car, might go down a bit as when the dude punched in the numbers he allowed for $2500.
I don't have the money right now to "write a cheque" as the finance guy said is usually done when there's stuff that needs to be fixed, so they'll pay it and I'd owe them via my next car, which is what I expected. So there's still a bit of wiggle room since I was sort of expecting to pay more for what I thought was going to be another lease.
I'm not AS bummed as I thought I'd be at the thought of owning it. I mean, I can ratbag the shit out of it and won't have to worry if I get a scratch here or a bump there on it. And it IS cute, I suppose. It's black which is fine but boring. I'll miss having the zip and control of a standard but it's not the worst thing that I won't be able to speed as easily, I suppose.
OH WELL. There are worse things in life, right? I think I was more bothered by the idea that I'll sort of be tied down here for another set number of years. I don't know. I feel like I'm in a funk right now and trying to find that "sweet spot" where I was content and okay with everything. One foot in front of the other, day by day. All I can do right now and take things as they come while I try to figure out what I DO want.
Um, probably nothing. There's LOTS of stuff I don't like but there's no reason why someone else shouldn't enjoy it. Even that nasty surströmming that I know about only through Youtube. For some people out there I'm sure it's a beloved food and, moreover, might be the only protein or fish someone has available to them. Gotta do what you gotta do, right?
In the morning I'll have the report from my car inspection. I'm not sure what to expect but I know they're going to ding me on at least a couple things on the car, hopefully not more. I was able to duck out of work a bit early to make it to the dealership to find out about my financing and what my options are.
Turns out I can't lease again because of my bankruptcy, which blows, and my rate is 14-ish%. So higher than I wanted/hoped and I HAVE to buy a car now. I can't even BUY OUT my lease because I wouldn't be able to get it financed for a reasonable amount or something, I don't know. The numbers guy was talking terms I have the barest of understanding of.
I test drove a 2015 Fiat 500 and liked it well enough. Like, at this point I just need a car and it was sufficient enough. It's got 51k on it right now (remember, mine that's two years older only has a little over 22k), it's an automatic (I wanted a standard), and it's only a two-door (eh, it's not like I'm hauling around football teams or anything). So it's got very little of what I WANTED but at this point I don't care. I literally cannot do anything else and won't be able to do anything for six years when my bankruptcy is totally cleared off my records and, conveniently, my payments are done. I'll be paying roughly what I'm paying now for the lease, which is fine AND, depending on what $$ the inspection says I owe for damages on the car, might go down a bit as when the dude punched in the numbers he allowed for $2500.
I don't have the money right now to "write a cheque" as the finance guy said is usually done when there's stuff that needs to be fixed, so they'll pay it and I'd owe them via my next car, which is what I expected. So there's still a bit of wiggle room since I was sort of expecting to pay more for what I thought was going to be another lease.
I'm not AS bummed as I thought I'd be at the thought of owning it. I mean, I can ratbag the shit out of it and won't have to worry if I get a scratch here or a bump there on it. And it IS cute, I suppose. It's black which is fine but boring. I'll miss having the zip and control of a standard but it's not the worst thing that I won't be able to speed as easily, I suppose.
OH WELL. There are worse things in life, right? I think I was more bothered by the idea that I'll sort of be tied down here for another set number of years. I don't know. I feel like I'm in a funk right now and trying to find that "sweet spot" where I was content and okay with everything. One foot in front of the other, day by day. All I can do right now and take things as they come while I try to figure out what I DO want.