just memes... sort of
45: do you trust your instincts a lot?
Yes. I consider my heart my gut and I even have "what does your heart tell you?" tattooed backwards above my heart. I try to listen to my instincts the most to prevent overthinking and also because they do tend to be true, at least for me. The biggest example of this is every day when I drive home from work I go with my gut on what route to take. It may sound stupid but there's a lot of factors to consider when I have to make the drive home. If I take the highway I can get off on a side road and take a slower, more windy-ish way home that includes going up a very steep hill that I won't take on certain days in the winter. If I go to the actual lights on the highway it's a safer way off and I know when I'll be able to turn even though that light is soooo long.
I could also take two different routes through the heights area, and one of those routes has two routes. Both will also take me through the downtown area, although I can skirt it for the most part, but the traffic's still usually irritating for me. My mood is always a factor when I drive and how I get there so I go with my gut to let me know the fastest, least stress-inducing way.
Have you ever heard a more boring answer to a question that's actually kind of interesting?
How slowly or quickly would you say you eat?
Not too fast, not too slowly. I'm in the middle and usually take my time with my food. If I'm having a hot dish I often prefer it to be luke-warm or bordering on tepid to eat it. I like the flavour better and it's also nice to eat without burning my tongue or the roof of my mouth.
Do you remember how you felt on 9/11?
Oh, fuck yes. I was confused, worried, scared. Numb for a lot of it. I remember standing in my dorm room watching my tv with my roommate and I believe we watched the second plane hit but it also could just have been one of the many, many replays of the moment. The tv was never on in the morning but I'd heard a couple girls talking about an incident in the bathroom and so I checked it out. I remember my best friend spent a lot of his morning skirting along the edges of hallways in his dorm because he was sure there were going to be bombs dropped near us because, at the time, our university was within 20 minutes of Canada's largest military base (I think in terms of troop numbers). Strategically it would have made sense to bomb that site, had there been a calculated attach on Canada.
What outfit makes you feel the most attractive?
Whatever shows some cleavage? I don't know, I don't dress to appear attractive to anyone but myself, in all honesty. I like wearing cute things in bright colours that make me feel good.
Do you wear any make-up and, if yes, what?
I went through a couple months with my new job where I was doing the whole shebang (well, for ME), including my eyebrows. But then I got lazy and realized I work in a building with literally two other guys and they wouldn't know the difference, nor would it matter. I wear eyeliner and mascara at most right now. I was tempted to try the baking/contouring/highlighting stuff when I got the new job but I figured I'd start small and work up from there if I got good and/or felt like it was a good next step. I'm glad I didn't spend any money on anything too fancy. I'm still a drugstore makeup shopper!
What’s a smell that absolutely makes you gag?
Rotten leftovers, especially cauliflower or broccoli (although broccoli smells worse when it's cooked because then it smells like farts). Vomit's not that great, either.
Is there a smell that gives you headaches?
Nothing specifically. Like, I've been in situations where there are heavy chemical smells from floor cleaners or rug glue or something similar, and then I get headaches but those aren't everyday situations so I don't think they count.
What about one that reminds you of the past?
One smell? One smell that reminds me of the past? I'm not sure. Some musty smells remind me of old basements or attics but that's not past-specific.
When you think about marriage, what thoughts come up?
Mostly just a "someday" feeling. I honestly don't know if I'll ever get married. I have a feeling that when I do it'll be a spur of the moment thing and very casual. Kind of like a Khloe and Lamar situation, but without being a Kardashian or drug-addicted basketball player.
What’s your least favorite thing about summer?
Maybe just feeling sticky/sweaty all the time? I LOVE summer so there's not much for me to list here.
What’s your least favorite thing about the holiday season?
The holiday season. I hate Christmas and from year to year experience some level of depression and become withdrawn.
Other than yourself, who knows you the best?
My mom.
How long have you known this person?
I felt like giving a smartass answer but this is the best happy medium I would allow myself.
Do you have any embarrassing qualities and, if so, what are they?
LOL, I AM am embarrassing quality! Well, maybe not 100%. I snort when I laugh, I'm sometimes very literal when understanding people (something I picked up from my mom, I guess), I get stressed while driving and start screaming. Uh, likely other stuff.
What did you do the last time you were with friends?
D and I recorded the second episode of our podcast today.
Did you enjoy this activity, or not so much?
It was great! I love having a regularly scheduled time to hang out with one of my closest friends to shoot the shit.
How long have you had your current group of friends?
About 10 years, depending on which part of the group. I have groups from two workplaces and sometimes those people overlap.
What’s one complaint that you have about school?
That I'm so bitter about the experience. I loved my time in university, loved learning, loved what I learned, but I'm also upset that at the end of it I didn't come out really any further ahead and still had no idea what I wanted to do. I know things are different now in HS (as in WORSE) but being told in your senior year that "xx won't fly in college" or that you have to pick a school and major and have extra cirriculars and and and when you're not even 18 yet is so frustrating. It's even moreso when you look back on however many years of school you did and realize you would have done SO MANY THINGS differently had you been given options or time and space to think.
What do you do while you’re on campus but not in class?
When I lived on campus I did that but when I lived in the apartment I didn't really hang out at all there when I wasn't in class. I was much happier going home and being by myself, LOL.
What do you think of people who’re home-schooled?
Eh. Socialization is hard enough without deliberately pulling kids out of a socialization-heavy environment. Unless your kid requires special one-on-one attention that can't be received in a school system (and, honestly, I'm sure there's a lot of those out there) I think they should be in regular school. But I'm just a rando on the internet, why does my opinion count?
Do you know anyone who has Autism/Asperger’s syndrom?
Maybe? If I do they've never told me and I've never noticed.
Has anyone of the same sex ever hit on you?
I don't think so? If they did, again, I've never noticed.
Are you open to a same-sex relationship and why or why not?
I've THOUGHT about the possibility, especially after all these years of being single, but I'm just not physically attracted to a female. I have found myself attracted to the minds/personalities of males and females before but not enough to act on it.
Do you ever look down on people you don’t know?
I'm sure I do. I don't like to do it intentionally and I think I used to do it more when I was younger, but I can't say my thoughts are free of judgement.
Do you think boys look good in skinny jeans?
Well, yes and no. I think there are guys who can wear them and they look fine in them, but those guys aren't the ones I'm generally attracted to so I don't really ever pay attention to them. Does that make sense?
Do you think it’s okay for boys to dress like girls and vice versa?
I don't care. As long as you're not flashing ass at me in any way you do you. Know what's NOT okay? For all those fucking cute sparkly kids clothes and light-up shoes to not be made in adult sizes. Fuck you, makers of tiny-people clothes!
Have you ever dressed like or worn clothing belonging to the opposite sex?
I used to raid my grampy's closet and wear his clothes in high school. I still have a couple of his shirts, actually.
When and how did your favorite band become your favorite?
I don't have ONE favourite band and even if there are artists I prefer over others I'll only listen for as long as I enjoy their music. Sometimes sounds change or they release albums without a single song on it that I like so they fall down my list and are replaced by more current stuff from other people/bands.
How often do you listen to this band?
See above.
Do you know anyone who has crappy taste in music?
Yes, but that's subjective. I hate screamo shit but the guys at work who do jobs on the production floor where my office is blast it through the Sonos when they're back there. But then, I'm blasting murder podcasts from my computer and I'm sure people think that's weird, or judge me for loving Taylor Swift.
Do you judge people by their music preferences?
Sometimes, yes. Although it goes beyond if someone likes the music in some cases. For instance, if someone loves Chris Brown AND his music I'm gonna judge the ever-loving fuck out of that person. If someone loves Nickelback I'm gonna say nothing and inwardly cringe.
Do you know anyone who acts like someone they’re not?
Who doesn't at one point or another in their life?
What about purposely trying not to conform?
In HS and uni for sure. Less so now. I think passing into adulthood beats that shit out of you most of the time.
Would you befriend a loner and why or why not?
Yeah, and I did in school. I'm less apt to do it now because I'm not in a position where I meet such people very often (if at all) but in school I did it because... *shrugs* It just takes one point of connection for me and if that turns out to be the one that makes me want to know all about you I'd do my best to integrate that person into my life or me into theirs. Does that sound weird?
What do you think of people who litter and do you?
I think it's stupid. Like, it's one thing to let a gum wrapper go on a windy day; I've done it. But when I see people tossing entire fast food bags of trash out of their car on the road I think it's pathetic and beyond lazy. I've had a carrier bag full of garbage in my car for well over a year now and it's still ther because I've been too lazy to take it to a proper garbage can. I'm not dumping that shit out my window.
When was the last time you climbed a flight of stairs?
Couple of hours ago? I live in the basement.
How much time do you spend online daily?
Between my phone, home computer, work computer, and ipad I don't know if I'm ever OFF it, unless I'm sleeping or showering. And even when I was sleeping I'd sleep-tweet.
Is this more or less than you spent online three years ago?
Probably the same.
Do you remember your first time using the internet?
The FIRST time? No. I don't think so. I used computers since I was about 7 or so but I don't remember when or what I did the FIRST time. I remember a friend set up a hotmail address for me when I was 11, I think, but he got the password or name wrong so I had to set up a whole new one. Maybe around then?
Do you remember life without the internet?
Yes. It's both weird and missed.
What went wrong in your previous relationship?
I was 19 and a teenager and uptight and a much different person than I am now. I was also NINETEEN.
If you’re in one, is anything wrong with it now?
*twiddles thumbs*
How would you react to being cheated on?
I'd be piiiiisssssed.
Would you ever consider cheating on another person?
I have in the past but it never happened. I don't think I'd actually cheat but I could't say I wouldn't consider it.
Is drinking and smoking a dating deal-breaker for you?
Depends on how frequent both are. I can handle social drinking and social smoking (I partake myself) but I don't want to date an ashtray who drinks every day. Like, A beer a day I could be okay with but considering my history with alcoholism in my family it's not something I would want to be around most of the time.
Or do you drink and smoke as well?
Not very often (maybe one drink a month?) and not cigarettes.
What other sites are you on at this time?
Twitter, tumblr (although I don't use it THAT much), DW
Do you have a favorite survey-maker and survey-taker?
Lol, what? Like, the Canadian census?
Do you wear sunglasses regularly?
Not really. I wear my glasses most of the time so I usually just squint and bear it.
Would you rather have six months of extremely cold winter weather or six months of blistering, brain-frying heat?
Heat. ALWAYS HEAT.
How would you describe your wardrobe?
Casual ... lack of theme. Casual themeless.
Is there anyone that you think is ugly?
Yes. A lot of the time it has to do with the person's personality which makes me see them as ugly. I think the last time I saw someone as ugly physically was likely the sex offender who was just released from prison in this area with a "high risk to reoffend" designation. So it was a one-two punch there. Ugly personality AND ugly face/hair.
Have you ever found yourself to be ugly?
Yes.
How much have you eaten today?
I had some foccacia bread with pizza sauce and deli meats, some rice, sweet potato crackers, ice cream.
Have you read the Twilight series and do you like it or dislike it?
I have and I dislike it now. During the first two books I read them quickly and ate everything up, caught in the high school part of my brain. As soon as I had a couple days of distance between myself and them to actually think and consider what I read and the QUALITY of what I read I realized I'd been snowed.
Do you prefer Harry Potter, or perhaps some other series?
I guess HP? I don't know what other series to compare it against.
How would you describe your current surroundings?
Basement bedroom, after midnight. Sitting at my desk with Bob's Burgers on TV, trying to keep the cat off the laptop on my bed.
Who was the last person that you asked a question?
Either my mom or D
D and I recorded our second podcast today! I finally got the first one edited and threw some music on it. I have it on soundcloud, sort of officially/sort of not. We don't have a logo/graphic designed yet so that's got to get done and I don't know if I've added the right tags or anything on the file so I haven't announced it yet or anything. But if anyone wants to kill about 53 minutes listening to a couple girls who don't know what they're doing swear and talk about pop-litics feel free to check it out here.
Yes. I consider my heart my gut and I even have "what does your heart tell you?" tattooed backwards above my heart. I try to listen to my instincts the most to prevent overthinking and also because they do tend to be true, at least for me. The biggest example of this is every day when I drive home from work I go with my gut on what route to take. It may sound stupid but there's a lot of factors to consider when I have to make the drive home. If I take the highway I can get off on a side road and take a slower, more windy-ish way home that includes going up a very steep hill that I won't take on certain days in the winter. If I go to the actual lights on the highway it's a safer way off and I know when I'll be able to turn even though that light is soooo long.
I could also take two different routes through the heights area, and one of those routes has two routes. Both will also take me through the downtown area, although I can skirt it for the most part, but the traffic's still usually irritating for me. My mood is always a factor when I drive and how I get there so I go with my gut to let me know the fastest, least stress-inducing way.
Have you ever heard a more boring answer to a question that's actually kind of interesting?
How slowly or quickly would you say you eat?
Not too fast, not too slowly. I'm in the middle and usually take my time with my food. If I'm having a hot dish I often prefer it to be luke-warm or bordering on tepid to eat it. I like the flavour better and it's also nice to eat without burning my tongue or the roof of my mouth.
Do you remember how you felt on 9/11?
Oh, fuck yes. I was confused, worried, scared. Numb for a lot of it. I remember standing in my dorm room watching my tv with my roommate and I believe we watched the second plane hit but it also could just have been one of the many, many replays of the moment. The tv was never on in the morning but I'd heard a couple girls talking about an incident in the bathroom and so I checked it out. I remember my best friend spent a lot of his morning skirting along the edges of hallways in his dorm because he was sure there were going to be bombs dropped near us because, at the time, our university was within 20 minutes of Canada's largest military base (I think in terms of troop numbers). Strategically it would have made sense to bomb that site, had there been a calculated attach on Canada.
What outfit makes you feel the most attractive?
Whatever shows some cleavage? I don't know, I don't dress to appear attractive to anyone but myself, in all honesty. I like wearing cute things in bright colours that make me feel good.
Do you wear any make-up and, if yes, what?
I went through a couple months with my new job where I was doing the whole shebang (well, for ME), including my eyebrows. But then I got lazy and realized I work in a building with literally two other guys and they wouldn't know the difference, nor would it matter. I wear eyeliner and mascara at most right now. I was tempted to try the baking/contouring/highlighting stuff when I got the new job but I figured I'd start small and work up from there if I got good and/or felt like it was a good next step. I'm glad I didn't spend any money on anything too fancy. I'm still a drugstore makeup shopper!
What’s a smell that absolutely makes you gag?
Rotten leftovers, especially cauliflower or broccoli (although broccoli smells worse when it's cooked because then it smells like farts). Vomit's not that great, either.
Is there a smell that gives you headaches?
Nothing specifically. Like, I've been in situations where there are heavy chemical smells from floor cleaners or rug glue or something similar, and then I get headaches but those aren't everyday situations so I don't think they count.
What about one that reminds you of the past?
One smell? One smell that reminds me of the past? I'm not sure. Some musty smells remind me of old basements or attics but that's not past-specific.
When you think about marriage, what thoughts come up?
Mostly just a "someday" feeling. I honestly don't know if I'll ever get married. I have a feeling that when I do it'll be a spur of the moment thing and very casual. Kind of like a Khloe and Lamar situation, but without being a Kardashian or drug-addicted basketball player.
What’s your least favorite thing about summer?
Maybe just feeling sticky/sweaty all the time? I LOVE summer so there's not much for me to list here.
What’s your least favorite thing about the holiday season?
The holiday season. I hate Christmas and from year to year experience some level of depression and become withdrawn.
Other than yourself, who knows you the best?
My mom.
How long have you known this person?
I felt like giving a smartass answer but this is the best happy medium I would allow myself.
Do you have any embarrassing qualities and, if so, what are they?
LOL, I AM am embarrassing quality! Well, maybe not 100%. I snort when I laugh, I'm sometimes very literal when understanding people (something I picked up from my mom, I guess), I get stressed while driving and start screaming. Uh, likely other stuff.
What did you do the last time you were with friends?
D and I recorded the second episode of our podcast today.
Did you enjoy this activity, or not so much?
It was great! I love having a regularly scheduled time to hang out with one of my closest friends to shoot the shit.
How long have you had your current group of friends?
About 10 years, depending on which part of the group. I have groups from two workplaces and sometimes those people overlap.
What’s one complaint that you have about school?
That I'm so bitter about the experience. I loved my time in university, loved learning, loved what I learned, but I'm also upset that at the end of it I didn't come out really any further ahead and still had no idea what I wanted to do. I know things are different now in HS (as in WORSE) but being told in your senior year that "xx won't fly in college" or that you have to pick a school and major and have extra cirriculars and and and when you're not even 18 yet is so frustrating. It's even moreso when you look back on however many years of school you did and realize you would have done SO MANY THINGS differently had you been given options or time and space to think.
What do you do while you’re on campus but not in class?
When I lived on campus I did that but when I lived in the apartment I didn't really hang out at all there when I wasn't in class. I was much happier going home and being by myself, LOL.
What do you think of people who’re home-schooled?
Eh. Socialization is hard enough without deliberately pulling kids out of a socialization-heavy environment. Unless your kid requires special one-on-one attention that can't be received in a school system (and, honestly, I'm sure there's a lot of those out there) I think they should be in regular school. But I'm just a rando on the internet, why does my opinion count?
Do you know anyone who has Autism/Asperger’s syndrom?
Maybe? If I do they've never told me and I've never noticed.
Has anyone of the same sex ever hit on you?
I don't think so? If they did, again, I've never noticed.
Are you open to a same-sex relationship and why or why not?
I've THOUGHT about the possibility, especially after all these years of being single, but I'm just not physically attracted to a female. I have found myself attracted to the minds/personalities of males and females before but not enough to act on it.
Do you ever look down on people you don’t know?
I'm sure I do. I don't like to do it intentionally and I think I used to do it more when I was younger, but I can't say my thoughts are free of judgement.
Do you think boys look good in skinny jeans?
Well, yes and no. I think there are guys who can wear them and they look fine in them, but those guys aren't the ones I'm generally attracted to so I don't really ever pay attention to them. Does that make sense?
Do you think it’s okay for boys to dress like girls and vice versa?
I don't care. As long as you're not flashing ass at me in any way you do you. Know what's NOT okay? For all those fucking cute sparkly kids clothes and light-up shoes to not be made in adult sizes. Fuck you, makers of tiny-people clothes!
Have you ever dressed like or worn clothing belonging to the opposite sex?
I used to raid my grampy's closet and wear his clothes in high school. I still have a couple of his shirts, actually.
When and how did your favorite band become your favorite?
I don't have ONE favourite band and even if there are artists I prefer over others I'll only listen for as long as I enjoy their music. Sometimes sounds change or they release albums without a single song on it that I like so they fall down my list and are replaced by more current stuff from other people/bands.
How often do you listen to this band?
See above.
Do you know anyone who has crappy taste in music?
Yes, but that's subjective. I hate screamo shit but the guys at work who do jobs on the production floor where my office is blast it through the Sonos when they're back there. But then, I'm blasting murder podcasts from my computer and I'm sure people think that's weird, or judge me for loving Taylor Swift.
Do you judge people by their music preferences?
Sometimes, yes. Although it goes beyond if someone likes the music in some cases. For instance, if someone loves Chris Brown AND his music I'm gonna judge the ever-loving fuck out of that person. If someone loves Nickelback I'm gonna say nothing and inwardly cringe.
Do you know anyone who acts like someone they’re not?
Who doesn't at one point or another in their life?
What about purposely trying not to conform?
In HS and uni for sure. Less so now. I think passing into adulthood beats that shit out of you most of the time.
Would you befriend a loner and why or why not?
Yeah, and I did in school. I'm less apt to do it now because I'm not in a position where I meet such people very often (if at all) but in school I did it because... *shrugs* It just takes one point of connection for me and if that turns out to be the one that makes me want to know all about you I'd do my best to integrate that person into my life or me into theirs. Does that sound weird?
What do you think of people who litter and do you?
I think it's stupid. Like, it's one thing to let a gum wrapper go on a windy day; I've done it. But when I see people tossing entire fast food bags of trash out of their car on the road I think it's pathetic and beyond lazy. I've had a carrier bag full of garbage in my car for well over a year now and it's still ther because I've been too lazy to take it to a proper garbage can. I'm not dumping that shit out my window.
When was the last time you climbed a flight of stairs?
Couple of hours ago? I live in the basement.
How much time do you spend online daily?
Between my phone, home computer, work computer, and ipad I don't know if I'm ever OFF it, unless I'm sleeping or showering. And even when I was sleeping I'd sleep-tweet.
Is this more or less than you spent online three years ago?
Probably the same.
Do you remember your first time using the internet?
The FIRST time? No. I don't think so. I used computers since I was about 7 or so but I don't remember when or what I did the FIRST time. I remember a friend set up a hotmail address for me when I was 11, I think, but he got the password or name wrong so I had to set up a whole new one. Maybe around then?
Do you remember life without the internet?
Yes. It's both weird and missed.
What went wrong in your previous relationship?
I was 19 and a teenager and uptight and a much different person than I am now. I was also NINETEEN.
If you’re in one, is anything wrong with it now?
*twiddles thumbs*
How would you react to being cheated on?
I'd be piiiiisssssed.
Would you ever consider cheating on another person?
I have in the past but it never happened. I don't think I'd actually cheat but I could't say I wouldn't consider it.
Is drinking and smoking a dating deal-breaker for you?
Depends on how frequent both are. I can handle social drinking and social smoking (I partake myself) but I don't want to date an ashtray who drinks every day. Like, A beer a day I could be okay with but considering my history with alcoholism in my family it's not something I would want to be around most of the time.
Or do you drink and smoke as well?
Not very often (maybe one drink a month?) and not cigarettes.
What other sites are you on at this time?
Twitter, tumblr (although I don't use it THAT much), DW
Do you have a favorite survey-maker and survey-taker?
Lol, what? Like, the Canadian census?
Do you wear sunglasses regularly?
Not really. I wear my glasses most of the time so I usually just squint and bear it.
Would you rather have six months of extremely cold winter weather or six months of blistering, brain-frying heat?
Heat. ALWAYS HEAT.
How would you describe your wardrobe?
Casual ... lack of theme. Casual themeless.
Is there anyone that you think is ugly?
Yes. A lot of the time it has to do with the person's personality which makes me see them as ugly. I think the last time I saw someone as ugly physically was likely the sex offender who was just released from prison in this area with a "high risk to reoffend" designation. So it was a one-two punch there. Ugly personality AND ugly face/hair.
Have you ever found yourself to be ugly?
Yes.
How much have you eaten today?
I had some foccacia bread with pizza sauce and deli meats, some rice, sweet potato crackers, ice cream.
Have you read the Twilight series and do you like it or dislike it?
I have and I dislike it now. During the first two books I read them quickly and ate everything up, caught in the high school part of my brain. As soon as I had a couple days of distance between myself and them to actually think and consider what I read and the QUALITY of what I read I realized I'd been snowed.
Do you prefer Harry Potter, or perhaps some other series?
I guess HP? I don't know what other series to compare it against.
How would you describe your current surroundings?
Basement bedroom, after midnight. Sitting at my desk with Bob's Burgers on TV, trying to keep the cat off the laptop on my bed.
Who was the last person that you asked a question?
Either my mom or D
D and I recorded our second podcast today! I finally got the first one edited and threw some music on it. I have it on soundcloud, sort of officially/sort of not. We don't have a logo/graphic designed yet so that's got to get done and I don't know if I've added the right tags or anything on the file so I haven't announced it yet or anything. But if anyone wants to kill about 53 minutes listening to a couple girls who don't know what they're doing swear and talk about pop-litics feel free to check it out here.