Uuuuggghhhh
Tonight really pushed my Beyonce "meh" into Beyonce "UGH". I've spoken before, and recently, about how I don't get Beyonce. I'm not a fan of her music and have never been, I don't get why people think she's so great and I've just generally been a non-fan. Not a hater, just not a fan.
Tonight's Grammys have pushed it over the edge for me. D hit it on the head for me when she said Beyonce's been drinking her own Koolaid. The religious iconography, the gold EVERYTHING, the performance art... it pushed it all very over the edge for me. Even her acceptance speech was on a gold piece of paper.
I LOVED that Adele opened the show and it was just her. On a stage with no props. No pyrotechnics. No trapeze artists or acrobats or backup anything. Just her and her voice and beaming radiance.
I REALLY wasn't a fan of Katy Perry's performance. The song wasn't great and the set up for the end felt SO overworked and gimicky. Like, there were a lot of political messages tonight but most of them were more organic or reinforcement. Katy's ending felt like being smashed in the head with a sledgehammer.
Ugh, whatever.
Other than that the Grammys were a non-starter for me. I generally don't watch them because I find them soooo boring (which they were) and I don't listen to more than a scant handful of artists who get nominated or perform. It was fun watching with D and O, however, and I got to swear a lot at the TV and have engaging debates and conversations.
The highlight of the night was coming home and downloading Last Week Tonight's premiere and feeling like the sunny spot at the top of each week is back to part the blackout curtains that the current news and other media has darkened our lives with.
Interesting things have happened at work. I keep meaning to post an "all about me" so all the new people I friended have a primer on things but I keep forgetting. Here's the sitch: new job as of October. Family-owned manufacturing company. I'm the marketing person and the position was basically created for me by the husband of a friend who approached me about this almost a year ago. It just took until October to get things set up.
So the friend's husband is my friend, too. His brothers own the company and he's in the umbrella company that oversees the three separate shops we have in three separate cities. I work with him and the only people over us are the brothers (who are great, btw).
Cue Wednesday. Friend's husband and I have a good day, we went out to take pics of a new install site for social media and to beef up our gallery of pics for our database, etc. We stop at a bakery, have some laughs, talk about going back the next day, etc.
I go back to my office to work after he tells me he's going to leave early because he's got to do some after hours work on the accounting software. Cool, fine. After that I could hear him talking to the brother that is the president who lives here (other one lives in next province over). Couldn't hear what they were saying, whatever, I don't care.
Thursday morning I get to work after a doctor's appointment and the pres greets me in my office and tells me my friend's husband is "gone". At first I thought he was joking like, "haha, he died" or whatever but no. It was legit. The previous afternoon when they were talking he basically said, "I'm done." And that was that.
I... still don't know what happened or what's going on or how we're going to deal with this. He did ALL the IT/tech stuff for us. We have a pretty solid series of websites but it's all based on an open source base model with custom modules and sometimes he had to code stuff to work the way we wanted/needed by himself.
This was a very rash, snap decision. I kind of know why but not an actual reason. More like... where his mind frame has been? There's some bigger stuff outside of this that has raised my eyebrow more than a few times even before I started working there that I won't get into but it's all just very strange.
I haven't texted him or my friend because I honestly think it's best for me to stay out of it, being where I am at this point. If I weren't working there I'd likely have exchanged some texts with her but I feel weird about it right now. It's none of my business, as well.
I feel ... a little stressed and worried right now. I'm not worried for my job (the pres told me Thursday morning that "everyone loves you" so that's cool) but I'm worried because to this point I've been following his lead since he was pulling double duty by doing his and my job before I was hired. Now I can dedicate to things like social media, analytics, advertising, etc 100% but without him to prompt me or guide me through the important things I'm not sure I'll know what they are. The pres is busy a lot of the time, although he's very willing to help me out and answer any questions and go over anything. He's INCREDIBLY approachable. But he's been at one of our other shops two or three days a week since November because they let the manager there go for being a waste of space. The other brother goes, too, but the pres is the one I answer to directly, I guess. He's also dealing with our first big commercial job for this shop and that's taking up a lot of his time, energy, and attention.
Like, Thursday I had a call with Yellow Pages about our account and the current analytics to see where we want to go for the next few months, I had to attend a launch for a media site we're advertising with that he was supposed to go to with me, I'm dealing with the TV station to make us a new commercial, I'm designing product line catalogs for our home shows that are coming up at the end of this month and next. And now I'm on my own, figuring it out.
I understand the desire to do what your heart tells you and to follow a passion. But not at the drop of a hat without a plan or something to step into next. Like, that's some shit you read about in a book that's adapted for film in the future about meditation and finding your light and starring Reese Witherspoon or some shit.
I'm oddly calm about this but also feeling a bit adrift.
TL;DR: I don't like Beyonce, Adele is awesome, Last Week Tonight is the best, work is weird.
Tonight's Grammys have pushed it over the edge for me. D hit it on the head for me when she said Beyonce's been drinking her own Koolaid. The religious iconography, the gold EVERYTHING, the performance art... it pushed it all very over the edge for me. Even her acceptance speech was on a gold piece of paper.
I LOVED that Adele opened the show and it was just her. On a stage with no props. No pyrotechnics. No trapeze artists or acrobats or backup anything. Just her and her voice and beaming radiance.
I REALLY wasn't a fan of Katy Perry's performance. The song wasn't great and the set up for the end felt SO overworked and gimicky. Like, there were a lot of political messages tonight but most of them were more organic or reinforcement. Katy's ending felt like being smashed in the head with a sledgehammer.
Ugh, whatever.
Other than that the Grammys were a non-starter for me. I generally don't watch them because I find them soooo boring (which they were) and I don't listen to more than a scant handful of artists who get nominated or perform. It was fun watching with D and O, however, and I got to swear a lot at the TV and have engaging debates and conversations.
The highlight of the night was coming home and downloading Last Week Tonight's premiere and feeling like the sunny spot at the top of each week is back to part the blackout curtains that the current news and other media has darkened our lives with.
Interesting things have happened at work. I keep meaning to post an "all about me" so all the new people I friended have a primer on things but I keep forgetting. Here's the sitch: new job as of October. Family-owned manufacturing company. I'm the marketing person and the position was basically created for me by the husband of a friend who approached me about this almost a year ago. It just took until October to get things set up.
So the friend's husband is my friend, too. His brothers own the company and he's in the umbrella company that oversees the three separate shops we have in three separate cities. I work with him and the only people over us are the brothers (who are great, btw).
Cue Wednesday. Friend's husband and I have a good day, we went out to take pics of a new install site for social media and to beef up our gallery of pics for our database, etc. We stop at a bakery, have some laughs, talk about going back the next day, etc.
I go back to my office to work after he tells me he's going to leave early because he's got to do some after hours work on the accounting software. Cool, fine. After that I could hear him talking to the brother that is the president who lives here (other one lives in next province over). Couldn't hear what they were saying, whatever, I don't care.
Thursday morning I get to work after a doctor's appointment and the pres greets me in my office and tells me my friend's husband is "gone". At first I thought he was joking like, "haha, he died" or whatever but no. It was legit. The previous afternoon when they were talking he basically said, "I'm done." And that was that.
I... still don't know what happened or what's going on or how we're going to deal with this. He did ALL the IT/tech stuff for us. We have a pretty solid series of websites but it's all based on an open source base model with custom modules and sometimes he had to code stuff to work the way we wanted/needed by himself.
This was a very rash, snap decision. I kind of know why but not an actual reason. More like... where his mind frame has been? There's some bigger stuff outside of this that has raised my eyebrow more than a few times even before I started working there that I won't get into but it's all just very strange.
I haven't texted him or my friend because I honestly think it's best for me to stay out of it, being where I am at this point. If I weren't working there I'd likely have exchanged some texts with her but I feel weird about it right now. It's none of my business, as well.
I feel ... a little stressed and worried right now. I'm not worried for my job (the pres told me Thursday morning that "everyone loves you" so that's cool) but I'm worried because to this point I've been following his lead since he was pulling double duty by doing his and my job before I was hired. Now I can dedicate to things like social media, analytics, advertising, etc 100% but without him to prompt me or guide me through the important things I'm not sure I'll know what they are. The pres is busy a lot of the time, although he's very willing to help me out and answer any questions and go over anything. He's INCREDIBLY approachable. But he's been at one of our other shops two or three days a week since November because they let the manager there go for being a waste of space. The other brother goes, too, but the pres is the one I answer to directly, I guess. He's also dealing with our first big commercial job for this shop and that's taking up a lot of his time, energy, and attention.
Like, Thursday I had a call with Yellow Pages about our account and the current analytics to see where we want to go for the next few months, I had to attend a launch for a media site we're advertising with that he was supposed to go to with me, I'm dealing with the TV station to make us a new commercial, I'm designing product line catalogs for our home shows that are coming up at the end of this month and next. And now I'm on my own, figuring it out.
I understand the desire to do what your heart tells you and to follow a passion. But not at the drop of a hat without a plan or something to step into next. Like, that's some shit you read about in a book that's adapted for film in the future about meditation and finding your light and starring Reese Witherspoon or some shit.
I'm oddly calm about this but also feeling a bit adrift.
TL;DR: I don't like Beyonce, Adele is awesome, Last Week Tonight is the best, work is weird.