TGTWIO!!!!
THANK GOD THIS WEEK IS OVER!! Wow I just need this weekend so badly to think about things and relax! Well today was not so good to start off with but ended pretty damn good! Well Ill start off with 2nd hour cuz 1st hour nuttin to talk about and 2nd hour is where it all starts..
Well I came in to 2nd hour and didnt even LOOK at him. I just cudnt ..he angered me 2 much..although he hasn't really done anything I was just in that kind of mood. But so I wrote my notes whom i needed to write them 2 then got out the history book and got week 8's work done which was good then I put my head down and sorta slept for the last 30 minutes of class which was good. Again I didnt even look at him, well I did but I made sure he didnt see me. ahh but he looked so cute all dressed up!
**ahh I dunno what to do I thought i wud give up on him and just forget boys, but ALL i could think about is HIM even tho sometimes I get upset thinking about it..I just remember seeing him pitch when I was at his game and ahh he was so0o cute and god I just wish he was mine..but it just dont work like that! please help!! what do i do? I get so clamed up in class and freeze and cant talk but then outta school or outta class im fine! and if its because I dont talk much and im quiet that im ruining my chances with him, im going to hurt myself! ahh i really dunno what to do cuz if he dont like me then i wont waste my time but stephie u say he does whatever but i dunno what to think!**
blah so yah then I left class and went on to lunch..and I think I took out my anger and frustration (wait i DID) on Krystal and Stephanie! I wudnt talk to you guys and I like completely ignored u guys then told u id be back cuz I had promised Sally I would sit with her. (BIG MISTAKE) I cheered up a lil bit but then when I came back to see you guys I realized what I had did and felt so bad so after Sally was done yappin away I decided I would leave you 2 guys alone cuz I felt HORRIBLE and felt like there was no way you wanted to talk to me after what I had done.
And yah i managed to walk my lil butt into 3rd hour today for the 2nd time this week! I skipped his class 3 days in a ROW! bad! I knw im afraid to look at my grades! I messed up BIG time. But yah mr dumbass started handing out papers and figures mine was the 1st he called and he was like marish u got a zero because ur absense was never excused and then here is your other one that DID count..what a FUKIN dumb ass! ugh then he tries to be funny with the kids cuz he knws DAMN well noone likes his faggot ass! ahh wow i feel like im on a tilt for some reason..but ne ways yah then i took a test which i prolly failed but whatever then thank god it was time to go..
then 4th hour came and we got to watch a movie..THANK GOD! cuz i was in NO mood to do any work. I slept the whole hour! i never did that before! hah it was great. But yah then I had to walk home which was good cuz i need that damn exercise. Then I came home and slept! Then I had told Stephie about me maybe going to the Variety Show and she offered to go with! Thank god she did, it got me outta the house for awhile. Well I ended up walking up there around 6 got there in time and waited for like 10 mintues or so for Stephie. Then she gets outta the car and is hiding something behind her back..and shes like ure going to hate me and im like omg what did u do!? and she hands me this bag and tells me to read the card and i cud barely read it ..my eyes began to water up and got all blurry so she read it. omg it was the sweetest card EVER! then she told me to look in the bag and omg i smiled and cudnt help but laugh..it was a HUGE pack of MY POLAR ICE GUM!! LMAO..hah she told me she saw it and reminded her of me and had to get it!! omggg! its the little things thats make it more special' says my mom! omg that just made my night!! not the gum but the thought of her thinking of me like that and her writing a card! ! i cudnt ask for more of a better frriend than you STEPH! I love you to death and I swear I dunno what Id do without you. IM so glad we became friends..best of all..best friends! And we are starting to hang out more and im so excited! haha GYM tmw!! yayy! im gunna make sure I sweat my ass off cuz i NEEEEED it badly! heh I wanna thank you again! I love you so0o0o0o much!!!! dont forget..
yah so the thing was okay..but my favorite was the band and then the step team!! ahh TATI u ROCKED! hehe u KNW HOW TO DANCE! i wish i cud do that! and ahh ure so cute! u kept on a smile.. i watched u the whole time! hehe great job! ,..
ahh and my KRYSTAL AND ASHLEY..I LOVE YOU GUYS BOTH VERY MUCH 2! I also dunno what I would do without you guys! you both are truely awesome! thanks for being there for me and listening to my CRAP..slap me if i ever annoy u and need to get back to reality..imma try my best to be more happy if i see my self getting down again! thanks for being there for me!! =-) im so0o lucky! 143*477*637
Well I came in to 2nd hour and didnt even LOOK at him. I just cudnt ..he angered me 2 much..although he hasn't really done anything I was just in that kind of mood. But so I wrote my notes whom i needed to write them 2 then got out the history book and got week 8's work done which was good then I put my head down and sorta slept for the last 30 minutes of class which was good. Again I didnt even look at him, well I did but I made sure he didnt see me. ahh but he looked so cute all dressed up!
**ahh I dunno what to do I thought i wud give up on him and just forget boys, but ALL i could think about is HIM even tho sometimes I get upset thinking about it..I just remember seeing him pitch when I was at his game and ahh he was so0o cute and god I just wish he was mine..but it just dont work like that! please help!! what do i do? I get so clamed up in class and freeze and cant talk but then outta school or outta class im fine! and if its because I dont talk much and im quiet that im ruining my chances with him, im going to hurt myself! ahh i really dunno what to do cuz if he dont like me then i wont waste my time but stephie u say he does whatever but i dunno what to think!**
blah so yah then I left class and went on to lunch..and I think I took out my anger and frustration (wait i DID) on Krystal and Stephanie! I wudnt talk to you guys and I like completely ignored u guys then told u id be back cuz I had promised Sally I would sit with her. (BIG MISTAKE) I cheered up a lil bit but then when I came back to see you guys I realized what I had did and felt so bad so after Sally was done yappin away I decided I would leave you 2 guys alone cuz I felt HORRIBLE and felt like there was no way you wanted to talk to me after what I had done.
And yah i managed to walk my lil butt into 3rd hour today for the 2nd time this week! I skipped his class 3 days in a ROW! bad! I knw im afraid to look at my grades! I messed up BIG time. But yah mr dumbass started handing out papers and figures mine was the 1st he called and he was like marish u got a zero because ur absense was never excused and then here is your other one that DID count..what a FUKIN dumb ass! ugh then he tries to be funny with the kids cuz he knws DAMN well noone likes his faggot ass! ahh wow i feel like im on a tilt for some reason..but ne ways yah then i took a test which i prolly failed but whatever then thank god it was time to go..
then 4th hour came and we got to watch a movie..THANK GOD! cuz i was in NO mood to do any work. I slept the whole hour! i never did that before! hah it was great. But yah then I had to walk home which was good cuz i need that damn exercise. Then I came home and slept! Then I had told Stephie about me maybe going to the Variety Show and she offered to go with! Thank god she did, it got me outta the house for awhile. Well I ended up walking up there around 6 got there in time and waited for like 10 mintues or so for Stephie. Then she gets outta the car and is hiding something behind her back..and shes like ure going to hate me and im like omg what did u do!? and she hands me this bag and tells me to read the card and i cud barely read it ..my eyes began to water up and got all blurry so she read it. omg it was the sweetest card EVER! then she told me to look in the bag and omg i smiled and cudnt help but laugh..it was a HUGE pack of MY POLAR ICE GUM!! LMAO..hah she told me she saw it and reminded her of me and had to get it!! omggg! its the little things thats make it more special' says my mom! omg that just made my night!! not the gum but the thought of her thinking of me like that and her writing a card! ! i cudnt ask for more of a better frriend than you STEPH! I love you to death and I swear I dunno what Id do without you. IM so glad we became friends..best of all..best friends! And we are starting to hang out more and im so excited! haha GYM tmw!! yayy! im gunna make sure I sweat my ass off cuz i NEEEEED it badly! heh I wanna thank you again! I love you so0o0o0o much!!!! dont forget..
yah so the thing was okay..but my favorite was the band and then the step team!! ahh TATI u ROCKED! hehe u KNW HOW TO DANCE! i wish i cud do that! and ahh ure so cute! u kept on a smile.. i watched u the whole time! hehe great job! ,..
ahh and my KRYSTAL AND ASHLEY..I LOVE YOU GUYS BOTH VERY MUCH 2! I also dunno what I would do without you guys! you both are truely awesome! thanks for being there for me and listening to my CRAP..slap me if i ever annoy u and need to get back to reality..imma try my best to be more happy if i see my self getting down again! thanks for being there for me!! =-) im so0o lucky! 143*477*637