circle theory tested with spirit and heart
OK, it's official: this week's chessboard games are tiring me the fuck out. I'm finally done with everything. I'm a bit tired, but everything is complete -- I mean, landlord knows JT is coming and was cooler than a fan about it. "Oh no, please help your friend, it's hard out here!" I love her so much, that's so kind.
Little K (Nicki's daughter) is having her brat phase, but she's perked up about Aunt Reesey and Uncle JT wanting to spend more time with her. She's a good kid, and you know how I feel about mentorship. We're slowly circling the wagons, and I'm feeling pretty good -- our circle is essentially complete, just need to smooth out a few edges. Summer is the season for purging, I think -- I won't allow anyone to be in my presence that doesn't have our family's best interests in mind. That's the long and short of it, really. Nicki has the house almost spotless -- best housekeeper evar. It's a gift for me being so kind to them, which I told her was not necessary. She says that it's also a gift to JT -- that we clean the house and show him that we are delighted to have him. Aww, I love this circle so much it fucking hurts sometimes. Your pains become mine, and I ache at times. Then I rembmer I have to still walk my agenda, and some days that gets hard.
My promise to this group is that I'll give it my very best effort to keep things running smoothly. There's some tension because I'm so young and yet I seem so natural in the leadership position. I'm sad that people can't escape societal pressure, but that is not my problem. The pains of others is not necessarily my fault, and I refuse to take responsibility when it's time for other people to do so.
So *sigh* I have to be the bad guy for a while. I'm a pretty sexy villain, you know. *twirls* Besides, everyone secretly likes the villain anyway. It adds tension :D Maybe I'm happy because I'm still on my John Slattery high -- nnngh. John Slattery - that silver fox that holla at me any damn time of the damn day -- but it's just fantasy and fun. I'm trying to stay single right now -- too many distractions involved in relationships. JT can hold my heart while a bitch gets ruthless in the boardroom -- men hold purses, why not hearts? That's the way it's going to have to be until I build this empire out of sand and sweat. I won't have it any other way, but the pickings really ain't much to begin with. I intimidate the living shit out of men my own age, and really...I just find no reason to disrupt my life by trying to get involved. I'm 22 going on 23 -- I want to get this business off the ground while I don't have anything else. I want no regrets, and I will regret it if I get so wound up into a man that I forget who I am. See that too much, and I'm trying to learn lessons vicariously while avoiding those mistakes myself.
Gotta go -- all this tomfuckery aside, I'm feeling my best, and it's time to hop in the office and GET IT DONE! Woo!
this morning I woke up
feeling brand new, I jumped up
feeling my highs, and my lows
in my soul, and my goals
just to stop smokin', and stop drinkin'
And I've been thinking - I've got my reasons
Just to get (by), just to get (by)
just to get (by), just to get (by)
Little K (Nicki's daughter) is having her brat phase, but she's perked up about Aunt Reesey and Uncle JT wanting to spend more time with her. She's a good kid, and you know how I feel about mentorship. We're slowly circling the wagons, and I'm feeling pretty good -- our circle is essentially complete, just need to smooth out a few edges. Summer is the season for purging, I think -- I won't allow anyone to be in my presence that doesn't have our family's best interests in mind. That's the long and short of it, really. Nicki has the house almost spotless -- best housekeeper evar. It's a gift for me being so kind to them, which I told her was not necessary. She says that it's also a gift to JT -- that we clean the house and show him that we are delighted to have him. Aww, I love this circle so much it fucking hurts sometimes. Your pains become mine, and I ache at times. Then I rembmer I have to still walk my agenda, and some days that gets hard.
My promise to this group is that I'll give it my very best effort to keep things running smoothly. There's some tension because I'm so young and yet I seem so natural in the leadership position. I'm sad that people can't escape societal pressure, but that is not my problem. The pains of others is not necessarily my fault, and I refuse to take responsibility when it's time for other people to do so.
So *sigh* I have to be the bad guy for a while. I'm a pretty sexy villain, you know. *twirls* Besides, everyone secretly likes the villain anyway. It adds tension :D Maybe I'm happy because I'm still on my John Slattery high -- nnngh. John Slattery - that silver fox that holla at me any damn time of the damn day -- but it's just fantasy and fun. I'm trying to stay single right now -- too many distractions involved in relationships. JT can hold my heart while a bitch gets ruthless in the boardroom -- men hold purses, why not hearts? That's the way it's going to have to be until I build this empire out of sand and sweat. I won't have it any other way, but the pickings really ain't much to begin with. I intimidate the living shit out of men my own age, and really...I just find no reason to disrupt my life by trying to get involved. I'm 22 going on 23 -- I want to get this business off the ground while I don't have anything else. I want no regrets, and I will regret it if I get so wound up into a man that I forget who I am. See that too much, and I'm trying to learn lessons vicariously while avoiding those mistakes myself.
Gotta go -- all this tomfuckery aside, I'm feeling my best, and it's time to hop in the office and GET IT DONE! Woo!
this morning I woke up
feeling brand new, I jumped up
feeling my highs, and my lows
in my soul, and my goals
just to stop smokin', and stop drinkin'
And I've been thinking - I've got my reasons
Just to get (by), just to get (by)
just to get (by), just to get (by)