Can, Will, Must, Should... Just Be
Sometimes I feel like I'm absolutely burning -- my intense attitude about life makes me feel like I have to devour everything right right right now and I feel like I'll just die if I don't manage to see, touch, taste, hear, and smell everything around me.
I've been rolling from conflict to conflict this week, and even absorbing things that I would never absorb. I floated somewhere else today and then came back to the same conclusion I always do -- I'm just Marisa Serise. My main passion is to communicate all the passion and drama and plot that I can't in my professional writing stuff, so I bring those things through my stories. I have no idea why I chose smut as a theme, but I absolutely love it. The world of Bleach gives us such amazing characters to pull and twist into sexual situations.
My mood shifts so much that it's hard for me to pick a favorite, honestly -- which is why saying I have an OTP makes me giggle. I mean, I am a smut writing chessboard, so AiGin is one of my most frequent stops along the smut-train -- that dynamic makes D/s play almost too easy. But I can't leave out my interest in Renji and Ichigo. I chose those two for my Big Crazy Fic about a world with strong BDSM hierarchy and overtones for a reason -- I knew they could handle it. I see those two as being very loyal to each other and very resilient -- two things I think you gotta have to surf through BDSM from a lifestyle perspective. Though, it is a bit of a self-insert on my part because I could talk about BDSM forever and ever and ever and not get tired of it -- I love my kink life, truly.
I'm slowly getting used to fading into different voices for each pairing. Picking up Renji and Ichigo again, I like writing realistic fluff that stays crunchy in milk (oh, pb_cookie, I'll never get tired of sound-biting you! LOVES IT SO!). I'm not a super sugary fluff person in real time, so it's hard for me to write things that are just dripping with super-sugary declarations of love. I find myself totally using Renji as a narrator more often that not. I think the next challenge for myself will be to sit Ichigo into the big narrator's chair and really unlock the nuances of his POV.
For me to get interested in a pairing, they have to be damn near indestructible. I'm not talking from a ZOMGCANONZ! perspective (honestly, I couldn't give a fuck less if my pairings are valid in canon -- in Marisa's smut-ville EVERYTHING is canonz yo!), but from a perspective of fitting within my smutty framework.
I think one of the best ways I can explain is discussing my thoughts after writing The Everything Dance (RenIchi, NC-17, mild exhibitionism & sex of course!) -- some pairings fit a certain approach that I'm trying to go for. I mean, I managed to write a dancing Renji that seemed so real it jumped off the pages for me.
I notice that some pairings make situations easier than others -- I have to once again highlight the delightful Bad Romance by zealot1138 for this one -- the AU world of high class companionship fits her characterization of Renji to a fuckin' T, and Ichigo is captured as the wide-eyed innocent type that doesn't quite have a clear picture of the world yet. If I flipped that story and wove in another pairing for the primary roles, it would have fallen very, very, flat. I've always believed that part of a writer's power is to actually pull you into the pairing that's closest to their heart, or at least the one that's presented as the primary pairing of the story.
How could I start a discussion on passion and pairings without highlighting two other fantastic writers in my fangirl circle -- pb_cookie and stopwatch_plz? Very awesome stories, and I don't even know where to jump in with first. :D
I'll tag stopwatch first -- her most recent posting, "Lessons Learned" is absolutely delightful -- I can't say I read a lot of Bya/Ren, but her Byakuya is one of the loudest I've ever come across -- you really, really, get that he's walking with authority from start to finish. The word pictures are fun -- to the point I literally visualized several scenes unfolding.
The story that I really think of when I think about pb_c is the super sexy " A Dangerous Game" (NC-17, Hichi/Renji/Ichi - yay! threesomes...so to speak...) -- it's got a neat dub-con thread running through it that makes me realize why many of us readers have such a deep dub-con guilty pleasure -- in the right hands, dub-con is absolutely motherfucking sexy, and pb_c pulls it off beautifully without dropping characterization to do so.
That's the beauty of fanfiction. Even if something isn't your bag, you can get sucked into a story that really makes it hard to resist. I love that, and I think that's why I write smut. Seriously.
Had to pimp more of my fangirl circle -- zealot1138, pb_cookie, and stopwatch_plz. I'm always tearing through more fic though, so you never know when your story will get featured in one of my fanfiction musings -- you better go write! :)
and I couldn't resist my icon with the arrancar brigade -- the idea of all of them following rufflespada (Aaroneiro Arrurerie) makes me LOL -- go go little espada!
I've been rolling from conflict to conflict this week, and even absorbing things that I would never absorb. I floated somewhere else today and then came back to the same conclusion I always do -- I'm just Marisa Serise. My main passion is to communicate all the passion and drama and plot that I can't in my professional writing stuff, so I bring those things through my stories. I have no idea why I chose smut as a theme, but I absolutely love it. The world of Bleach gives us such amazing characters to pull and twist into sexual situations.
My mood shifts so much that it's hard for me to pick a favorite, honestly -- which is why saying I have an OTP makes me giggle. I mean, I am a smut writing chessboard, so AiGin is one of my most frequent stops along the smut-train -- that dynamic makes D/s play almost too easy. But I can't leave out my interest in Renji and Ichigo. I chose those two for my Big Crazy Fic about a world with strong BDSM hierarchy and overtones for a reason -- I knew they could handle it. I see those two as being very loyal to each other and very resilient -- two things I think you gotta have to surf through BDSM from a lifestyle perspective. Though, it is a bit of a self-insert on my part because I could talk about BDSM forever and ever and ever and not get tired of it -- I love my kink life, truly.
I'm slowly getting used to fading into different voices for each pairing. Picking up Renji and Ichigo again, I like writing realistic fluff that stays crunchy in milk (oh, pb_cookie, I'll never get tired of sound-biting you! LOVES IT SO!). I'm not a super sugary fluff person in real time, so it's hard for me to write things that are just dripping with super-sugary declarations of love. I find myself totally using Renji as a narrator more often that not. I think the next challenge for myself will be to sit Ichigo into the big narrator's chair and really unlock the nuances of his POV.
For me to get interested in a pairing, they have to be damn near indestructible. I'm not talking from a ZOMGCANONZ! perspective (honestly, I couldn't give a fuck less if my pairings are valid in canon -- in Marisa's smut-ville EVERYTHING is canonz yo!), but from a perspective of fitting within my smutty framework.
I think one of the best ways I can explain is discussing my thoughts after writing The Everything Dance (RenIchi, NC-17, mild exhibitionism & sex of course!) -- some pairings fit a certain approach that I'm trying to go for. I mean, I managed to write a dancing Renji that seemed so real it jumped off the pages for me.
I notice that some pairings make situations easier than others -- I have to once again highlight the delightful Bad Romance by zealot1138 for this one -- the AU world of high class companionship fits her characterization of Renji to a fuckin' T, and Ichigo is captured as the wide-eyed innocent type that doesn't quite have a clear picture of the world yet. If I flipped that story and wove in another pairing for the primary roles, it would have fallen very, very, flat. I've always believed that part of a writer's power is to actually pull you into the pairing that's closest to their heart, or at least the one that's presented as the primary pairing of the story.
How could I start a discussion on passion and pairings without highlighting two other fantastic writers in my fangirl circle -- pb_cookie and stopwatch_plz? Very awesome stories, and I don't even know where to jump in with first. :D
I'll tag stopwatch first -- her most recent posting, "Lessons Learned" is absolutely delightful -- I can't say I read a lot of Bya/Ren, but her Byakuya is one of the loudest I've ever come across -- you really, really, get that he's walking with authority from start to finish. The word pictures are fun -- to the point I literally visualized several scenes unfolding.
The story that I really think of when I think about pb_c is the super sexy " A Dangerous Game" (NC-17, Hichi/Renji/Ichi - yay! threesomes...so to speak...) -- it's got a neat dub-con thread running through it that makes me realize why many of us readers have such a deep dub-con guilty pleasure -- in the right hands, dub-con is absolutely motherfucking sexy, and pb_c pulls it off beautifully without dropping characterization to do so.
That's the beauty of fanfiction. Even if something isn't your bag, you can get sucked into a story that really makes it hard to resist. I love that, and I think that's why I write smut. Seriously.
Had to pimp more of my fangirl circle -- zealot1138, pb_cookie, and stopwatch_plz. I'm always tearing through more fic though, so you never know when your story will get featured in one of my fanfiction musings -- you better go write! :)
and I couldn't resist my icon with the arrancar brigade -- the idea of all of them following rufflespada (Aaroneiro Arrurerie) makes me LOL -- go go little espada!