Restless

[marisaserise]

I'm just...restless. That's the best way to describe it. Like I'm perched on top of a cliff waiting to fly gracefully down into oblivion. [

I managed to write some today...but my head's all scrambly. *sigh*

I'm not sure what's on my mind... but I'll work my way through it.

edit one - feeling more like my usual self -- that's better. threw on my

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[stopwatch_plz]

I wonder if there's something in the air...

I'm still in my... funk, for want of a better word. My spark has gone, my drive has gone and my desire to do shit has gone. It kinda sucks, tbh, and I'm not sure how to get it back (though I have a sneaking suspicion it's a case of "wait and see" *sigh*)

Still, this week's chapter was friggin' awesome and for the first time in ages I'm looking forward to next week's already *lol*

[marisaserise]

I don't know... I wasn't feeling my best over the last few days but I realize hey, the show's gotta go on. I can't sit and be upset when the rest of the world's waiting, you know?

I tend to throw myself into my work when I can't think straight about anything else. I can't change anything about fandom, but I know that I can't let go of the real dream I have. Everything else needs to take a damn number.

I see your stealth fic update and raise you an AiGin one-shot - These Demanding Illusions. ;) I thought of you as I wrote some of the lines, lol - JUST AS PLANNED. :D

*huggles* I'll just have to distract you with yaoi and hugs. :) and aww, teacher!Gin...

[stopwatch_plz]

I can't sit and be upset when the rest of the world's waiting, you know?

I read this, and then I realised something. Half of my problem is, the world's not waiting for me. Hell, most of the time the world doesn't even know I exist! Without a job you don't have any responsibilities or reason... don't get me wrong, I'm quite enjoying having no responsibilities but I'm one of those people who likes working for/with other people. I like to help, I like to be useful, and atm I'm doing neither. Never really thought of it that way. Given me something to think about and maybe try to change or do something about... Thanks :-)

Haha, yeah - I'd forgotten that I'd finally finished that fic so decided to post it. I'm not 100% happy with it, so I probably won't post it to any comms, but it's nice to get it out there finally! Started that back in October *lol*

Haha, fic was awesome. Managed to keep my attention for the whole thing which is a miracle atm! Mmm, Gin you creepy fucker *lol*

*huggles* I'll just have to distract you with yaoi and

[marisaserise]

hehe