This could be a crazy all-nighter....
What a fucking day. I have been so emotional lately. I think my hormonal levels are going crazy. I spent the last couple hours in the library, closed it down in fact. Still working on this damn theory construction. I want to shoot myself in the face. I just can't wait until I get to the point where it will be a waste to even go to sleep. Could happen. I've been thinking that perhaps this is the first year in long while(maybe ever) that I have been excited about Christmas. I hear the songs and you know as crazy as it sounds, it doesn't bother me. I could be even called happy. Sirpa, I might not be scrooge this year. Though it didn't stop me from getting a shirt from AE that says Bah Hum Bug. Cause I think it's funny. That's where I am at tonight, happy, tired, excited for Ricardo to be here on Saturday and just content. It's scary because mostly when I get to this point in my life where I feel I can take a deep breath and rest something awful happens. Please please don't let that happen now. Let me enjoy my one moment of pure happy contentment.
ok...back to the paper now.
ok...back to the paper now.