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Well I'm getting ready to do the whole birthday thing. I have to admit that it is not one of my favorite times of the year. Nothing as bad as christmas but whatever. I have a history of bad birthdays. Mostly because bad things happen to me or around me usually the week surrounding my birthday. Since my parents are divorced I have spent countless years having two celebrations where in one set I have to pretend to be happy while I receive presents that say nothing about who I am because the people on my fathers side of the family know very little about "me". Not to drag anyone down. I'm not trying to complain, I say this all matter o' factly. I don't really like birthdays, why should we celebrate the day I was born every year? That just seems like rewarding someone for the wrong reasons. Instead why don't we celebrate something like passing american politics with Leichter, this is a feat for some. Or something like finding inner peace and realizing that I am hopelessly flawed in all the ways I should be. Or celebrate the day I got taken down a peg or two, my ego is now a more livable size. Anyways..
I watched Lost in Translation again tonight. I love that movie, it gets better every time I see it. I get the same feeling from that movie sometimes in my own life. So much ridiculousness to laugh at. Feeling alone. Feeling like everyone else is moving around you while you are standing still. Then you find someone who makes all the difference.
I am so ready to travel. I finally applied for a passport. I think I am going to spend next fall semester in London. I could die tomorrow. I can't keep putting off my dreams. Live each day like it's your last? I need to work on that. I have been pouring myself over this guide to europe book. It is so exciting. So much to do until then.
I watched Lost in Translation again tonight. I love that movie, it gets better every time I see it. I get the same feeling from that movie sometimes in my own life. So much ridiculousness to laugh at. Feeling alone. Feeling like everyone else is moving around you while you are standing still. Then you find someone who makes all the difference.
I am so ready to travel. I finally applied for a passport. I think I am going to spend next fall semester in London. I could die tomorrow. I can't keep putting off my dreams. Live each day like it's your last? I need to work on that. I have been pouring myself over this guide to europe book. It is so exciting. So much to do until then.