wow
Lots of changes on the one thing that has been consistent in my life for the past 5 years. I dont really know what to do about it. I dont do well with obvious change, but then again maybe I am changing too. Well, I know I am, its just hard to admit. Its not my favorite thing anymore, but I miss it when I'm not there, and I have a hard time letting go of that consistancy. I always know what I'm doing on Saturday nights, for the most part there isnt any question. There are a bunch of reasons for me to stay, and not as many for me to go, but I just dont know what to do. Now I'm in turmoil and dont have anyone to talk to... everyones busy or not awake or something. Maybe Rocky was what I needed then, and dont need now, or maybe I need it now more then ever. I just dont know anymore. I wish it was as easy for me as it seems to be for some people, but I just dont know...