Preferably My Last Entry
This school year has been quite a rocky rolla coaster. Several things have made it that way and not just school itself. I'm only using school year as a reference to the time period and that is all.
This will most likely be my last entry and it will be the truth with no hidden or tricky thoughts even thought some people think I do such things on purpose. Some times I do and some times I don't. For this entry, you can actually quote every word since I won't be holding back. Most of the entries were just for fun to confuse people so I could entertain myself with the responses. Some of them of just random thoughts on my mind at the time. They were only fragments of the whole picture. Think about it...Why would I take this journal seriously? Why would I let people into my inner thoughts freely? Of course, there are a lot of entries that are nothing but my inner thoughts and feelings. Mainly I felt as though this journa; was just something to do and entertain myself with. Ok, enough with the explaining of my entires and lets get into my real intentions.
Ever since last summer, things have been changing quite rapidly. I was the so called one to leave first in the group as Mike seems to say. I don't really know about all that but I know I didn't hang around them much. I think I was disgusted with some with some reasons. Too long ago to remember...Any ways Crissy was down for most of the summer and we kind of kept to ourselves. We would visit Nick from time to and seldom see Eric for a hour since Crissy and I didn't want to spend our time sitting around sleeping. Crissy didn't really like them either especially Sammi for some reason. I wonder why. Crissy also met Tj and Jim but they didn't seem to care about any thing I am involved with any ways. We decided to see Mike one night and luckily he was home. All of us including Rae went to Mary divine and went on the swings. It was mostly Rae and Mike talking and I would cut in from time to time trying to include Crissy but Mike didn't seem to even notice Crissy or even I was there. We left in no time obviously. Nick received the most visits I believe. According to Mike, he was the second to go I believe. Crissy and I both had a better time hanging out with Nick than the rest. He seemed interested in us and therefor interacting bet ween us three became easy. I was glad atleast some one of my "friends" even bothered to care even though Nick tried destroyong Crissy and I's relationship earlier on by bad mouthing about me to Crissy online. I could of held a grudge like I tend to do but I decided to try something different. It worked i suppose. Atleast some one tried getting to know Crissy. Rob would probably say he tried as well but I think his main purpose was trying to get into her pants like he does every girl he sees in my opinion. Whenever there is a decent looking girl around, he attaches himself like a leech. That is what I can see.
The point I am getting to is to actually point out the changes mainly in my life over this school year, using school year as a reference to time. The visits with Nick were not boring and pretty fun. I think that is because all three of us are open to new things and don't want to spend our time sitting around the house wasting minutes or even brain cells. It was July 30th my birthday and Crissy had to leave. Why a great birthday...When I got home I knew it would be better if I got out and stayed away from where me and Crissy were just a few minutes ago. So as soon as I got home, I left decided to go visit Nick. Nick and I hung out for a while and then met up with his current friends. I only knew about one or two. I was quiet for most of the day since I was couping with leaving Crissy on my birthday. Ang, Kara, and Kara's sister were getting on my nerves argruing whether I was anti social or not and trying to grab my ass. It was as annoying as a migrane. As I think of it, I thought of Ang as kind of annoying at times I was around her. That night didn't get better and I was glad to get home. My plan to find comfort blew up in my face. Annoying bastards!!!
For the rest of the summer, I worked on the week days and hung out with Nick and the crew on week ends. It was fun most of the time. I visited Eric from time to time to see whats up but mostly to get a pack a cigs since you culd buy them. Soon enough school started and it was easy as smoking a cig. Nothing much changed. School replaced work. Once in a while thought I would hang out with some people from school instead hanging with the crew and Nick. Very seldom Nick and I or just me would happen to catch Mike when he was actually home and met some cool people as we thought at the time. Now Nick and I pretty much dislike them all with a few acceptions. Halloween came and Nick and I decided to have a party at his house. That is when Nick and I's little group got entangled with Mike's. It was great seeing Mike more often but he always had like 50 people with him. We never wanted to hang out with them just Mike but that never happened. Don't ask me where Jim, Tj and Eric were. they were probably where we left them. Sitting around getting high and playing video games. Me, Nick, and Mike started hanging out more with these large groups of people. At first it was fun until every started getting to know one another. Eventually...
I will pick up after from where I left off later. I don't feel like hitting any more buttons. There will be more. Hopefully a lot more when my brain starts conjuring old memorys feeling and thoughts again. I feel weight coming down upon my eye lids. I guess this won't actually be my last entry but it will be the first part of it. I perfer it only to be 2 entries at most. Most likely I will finish this tomorrow later in the night. wElp for any one who read this...Good night.
This will most likely be my last entry and it will be the truth with no hidden or tricky thoughts even thought some people think I do such things on purpose. Some times I do and some times I don't. For this entry, you can actually quote every word since I won't be holding back. Most of the entries were just for fun to confuse people so I could entertain myself with the responses. Some of them of just random thoughts on my mind at the time. They were only fragments of the whole picture. Think about it...Why would I take this journal seriously? Why would I let people into my inner thoughts freely? Of course, there are a lot of entries that are nothing but my inner thoughts and feelings. Mainly I felt as though this journa; was just something to do and entertain myself with. Ok, enough with the explaining of my entires and lets get into my real intentions.
Ever since last summer, things have been changing quite rapidly. I was the so called one to leave first in the group as Mike seems to say. I don't really know about all that but I know I didn't hang around them much. I think I was disgusted with some with some reasons. Too long ago to remember...Any ways Crissy was down for most of the summer and we kind of kept to ourselves. We would visit Nick from time to and seldom see Eric for a hour since Crissy and I didn't want to spend our time sitting around sleeping. Crissy didn't really like them either especially Sammi for some reason. I wonder why. Crissy also met Tj and Jim but they didn't seem to care about any thing I am involved with any ways. We decided to see Mike one night and luckily he was home. All of us including Rae went to Mary divine and went on the swings. It was mostly Rae and Mike talking and I would cut in from time to time trying to include Crissy but Mike didn't seem to even notice Crissy or even I was there. We left in no time obviously. Nick received the most visits I believe. According to Mike, he was the second to go I believe. Crissy and I both had a better time hanging out with Nick than the rest. He seemed interested in us and therefor interacting bet ween us three became easy. I was glad atleast some one of my "friends" even bothered to care even though Nick tried destroyong Crissy and I's relationship earlier on by bad mouthing about me to Crissy online. I could of held a grudge like I tend to do but I decided to try something different. It worked i suppose. Atleast some one tried getting to know Crissy. Rob would probably say he tried as well but I think his main purpose was trying to get into her pants like he does every girl he sees in my opinion. Whenever there is a decent looking girl around, he attaches himself like a leech. That is what I can see.
The point I am getting to is to actually point out the changes mainly in my life over this school year, using school year as a reference to time. The visits with Nick were not boring and pretty fun. I think that is because all three of us are open to new things and don't want to spend our time sitting around the house wasting minutes or even brain cells. It was July 30th my birthday and Crissy had to leave. Why a great birthday...When I got home I knew it would be better if I got out and stayed away from where me and Crissy were just a few minutes ago. So as soon as I got home, I left decided to go visit Nick. Nick and I hung out for a while and then met up with his current friends. I only knew about one or two. I was quiet for most of the day since I was couping with leaving Crissy on my birthday. Ang, Kara, and Kara's sister were getting on my nerves argruing whether I was anti social or not and trying to grab my ass. It was as annoying as a migrane. As I think of it, I thought of Ang as kind of annoying at times I was around her. That night didn't get better and I was glad to get home. My plan to find comfort blew up in my face. Annoying bastards!!!
For the rest of the summer, I worked on the week days and hung out with Nick and the crew on week ends. It was fun most of the time. I visited Eric from time to time to see whats up but mostly to get a pack a cigs since you culd buy them. Soon enough school started and it was easy as smoking a cig. Nothing much changed. School replaced work. Once in a while thought I would hang out with some people from school instead hanging with the crew and Nick. Very seldom Nick and I or just me would happen to catch Mike when he was actually home and met some cool people as we thought at the time. Now Nick and I pretty much dislike them all with a few acceptions. Halloween came and Nick and I decided to have a party at his house. That is when Nick and I's little group got entangled with Mike's. It was great seeing Mike more often but he always had like 50 people with him. We never wanted to hang out with them just Mike but that never happened. Don't ask me where Jim, Tj and Eric were. they were probably where we left them. Sitting around getting high and playing video games. Me, Nick, and Mike started hanging out more with these large groups of people. At first it was fun until every started getting to know one another. Eventually...
I will pick up after from where I left off later. I don't feel like hitting any more buttons. There will be more. Hopefully a lot more when my brain starts conjuring old memorys feeling and thoughts again. I feel weight coming down upon my eye lids. I guess this won't actually be my last entry but it will be the first part of it. I perfer it only to be 2 entries at most. Most likely I will finish this tomorrow later in the night. wElp for any one who read this...Good night.